Shawn Mendes imagines

Not enough

Y/N's POV

I was crying sat against my bed. All those perfect moments we had together were playing in my mind making me go crazy. I couldn't even remember being without him it was like he had took control of my whole brain.

How was I supposed to live without him. He had always been the one who made me smile who could make my day. It had been three day since he left and I hadn't done anything.

I hadn't even taken care of our daughter Y/D/N. She was one of the best thing that had happened to me. She was so cute and such a nice kid. How could I let her by herself for three days. Gosh I'm a horrible mother.

She had to be sad and worried. I hated myself for this and for not being enough for Shawn.

My family was totally drifting apart and I couldn't bear it. Then I heard someone knocking on the door. "Can I come in momma" my daughter asked in a sweet and soft tone.

"Yeah sure come in baby" I told her sniffing. She sat on my lap and wiped my tears away with small thumb. "Why are you crying" she asked her voice filled concern.

"No reason I'm sorry babygirl I didn't take care of you so you want me to order pizza for tonight and we'll watch a movie okay" I asked saddened by my acts. I got up and started to walk towards the kitchen with Y/D/N by my side

"Yay I'd love that can daddy come too because I don't where he is" she said and I could see hope in her look. How was I supposed to explain to a 3 years old that her dad might not comme back.

"I don't know I'm not sure he wanna come" I said getting up and going to the kitchen. "Why he always love watching movies with us" she enquired.

"I..it's complicated" I responded my voice cracking. He left us how. I always thought we were gonna stay together. It was the three of us forever. But no he left.

By now we were in the kitchen and as soon as I had finished my sentence she left in her room. And it broke my heart. She had to be devastated she just wanted to spend time with her father.

They used to be so close. She couldn't understand and I was so sorry. I destroyed my family by not being enough. I slid down and sat on the cold ground crying my eyes out. Why was I never enough.

Shawn's POV

How could I leave them. They were my family and I had left them. I was crying lying on my old bed. God how I missed Y/N. She was my everything.

And Y/D/N I was also missing her so much. I am the worst father I had left her. This was killing me my two girls were alone and probably sad because of me.

But it was to late I couldn't go back. I was still crying when I heard my phone rang. I picked it up from the bedside table and looked at the caller ID.

It was Y/N. I picked up and sniffed. "Hi dada" I heard an adorable small voice said. "Hi babygirl what's wrong" I asked trying to hide the fact that I cried.

"Can you come back home please daddy because momma doesn't stop crying and she told me that you wouldn't come over for a movie night but I miss you and I wanna do like every Friday" she confessed in a sad tone.

"Aww don't worry princess I'm coming everything is gonna be alright" I reassured her. When I had hanged up I jumped out of my bed and left my parents' house.

I arrived on the porch and I was scared. Scared of her reaction. "What if she doesn't let me come back" I wondered . I knew I wouldn't be able to live without them in my life.

I took a deep breath and opened the door with the keys I had kept. The house was silent except from loud sob. I recognized them it was Y/N's. "Y/N" I called her to know where she was.

However no one answered. I looked for her and found her in the kitchen sat on the floor crying. The sight of her crying her heart out killed me.

It was like someone just shot me in the chest. I gave up on them I gave up on my family. And now they are sad because of me.

My eyes filled with tears and they started to painfully roll down my cheeks. I sat next to her and pulled her into my chest.

"I'm so sorry Y/N" I said nearly whispering. "Don't be I understand I am not enough and you deserve better it's okay I just hope you'll be happy" she told me not even looking at me.

To know that I made her feel that way destroyed me. I was horrible the worst boyfriend she could have asked for. "No don't say that you are perfect if anyone is not enough it's me I let the both of you down for some stupid reasons I'm so freaking sorry" I said feeling awful.

"It's okay I'm just gonna leave to my parents' house because being here reminds me of us. If you want to take care of Y/D/N some days  you can ask me and she will go to your place." She said coldly still crying and got out of my embrace.

She went upstairs. "Please don't leave I need you here with me and Y/D/N. I can't live without you guys you are everything that I have and I'm the stupidest person in the world I shouldn't have let you down but please don't leave me. We can forget about this please Y/N I love you so much. I wanna see Y/D/N grow up with you by my side I wanna grow old with you. I wanna wake up with you in my arms for the rest of my life. I wanna say I love you to you every single day. Please Y/N" I said desperate.

"Shawn I love you too I just  don't think I am enough for you" she said looking down. "Aww princess you're way more than enough you're just perfect" I said hugging her tight I never wanted to let go. These three days had shown me how awful my life is without them.

"Please don't leave baby" I pled whispering. "I won't" she responded as quiet as me. "Yay!!!" I screamed happily. I was ecstatic to know that I could still be with them. I spun her around and kissed her. I putted so much passion in it to show her how much she meant to me.

"Daddy" I heard a voice scream. I turned and saw my beautiful daughter running towards me and she jumped in my arms. "Hi princess" I said kissing her hair. "How about we go see this movie" I asked "yes" Y/D/N screamed running to the living room. "I love you" I whispered in Y/N's ear before kissing her neck and heading to the living room.

She followed me and we all sat down on the couch. Soon Y/D/N fell asleep on my laps. We took her to her room and tucked her in "goodnight princess" I said before kissing her forehead. Then I went back into my room and lay down on our bed.

Gosh how it felt good to be back I had missed this so much. I placed my arms around Y/N's waist and pulled her closer to me. "Goodnight darling" I whispered kissing her shoulder. "Goodnight baby" she answered before snuggling up into me and falling asleep. This night I fell asleep great full to have my family with me