Shawn Mendes imagines

I know you're not fine

Y/N's POV

It was a Monday morning and like every Monday it was awful. I was feeling so annoyed with school I just wanted this school year to be over.

Everyone could see tiredness on my face due to the two last weeks without sleep except from some hours. And all of that was caused by the argument I had with all my friends.

I'm not really sure if they truly were my friends. They were always mean to me and making me feel so worthless. How can your supposed friends can be like that. But I had stayed with them because I was lonely.

I walked towards my locker and opened it. I was closing it when someone called my name.
"Y/N" it said and I immediately recognized who the voice belonged to. It was Shawn's. I sighed in annoyance.

"What" I answered coldly. It may seems like I didn't like Shawn but the truth is that I did. He had tried to take me out for weeks but I kept pushing him away.

I wasn't sure if he really wanted that I thought it was only a bet he had made with his friends. And even if it could have been real he deserved more than someone like me.

"I..um.. I'm sorry to annoy you that much but I was wondering if you'd like to go on a date with me" he asked blushing. To be honest I found it so cute how he was embarrassed and how he kept trying however I wasn't ready to let anyone see through the walls I had built. Last time  I let people in they destroyed me.

"I'm sorry but I don't think it's a good idea" I responded I felt so guilty of pushing him away all the time. I started to leave head down staring at my shoes. I had only made two steps when I hear him groaned.

"Ughh seriously" I heard him say. He sounded disappointed and frustrated. He turned around and his eyes widened at my sight but he didn't move. I was about to leave when his hand reached my wrist and took a hold of it. As our skin touched I felt sparkles.

"Please don't push me away again am I this bad" he said sadly. "Of course not you're amazing it's just I don't know how to explain it" I mumbled feeling so bad. I was so upset because I had to lie to him.

"Then what's the matter Y/N" he asked. I just wanted to tell him the truth but even my friends betrayed me. "You know I truly have feelings for you but I understand if you don't like me just tell me" he stated looking at his shoes probably because he was nervous about my answer.

"It's not that I" I started but he cut me off "then what is it Y/N I like you no I actually love you so please tell me what's the matter what are you scared of" he asked and I could tell he was concerned. So I understood that it wasn't a bet yet he deserved so much better than me.

"Please tell me" he said in soft and caring tone and intertwined our fingers. How could I say no. "It's just I am kinda scared of letting people see the real me how I feel and scared of being betrayed yeah It probably sounds dumb I am sorry" I answered ashamed and looked down at the ground. "Hey look at me" he said squeezing my hand and making me stare into his gorgeous hazel eyes.

"There is no need to be scared I would never hurt judge or betray you I could never do that to the person I love please give me one chance. I just love you so much and I really want to at least try" he said genuinely.

"Please beautiful I'm only asking for one chance just let me in let me see how amazing and gorgeous you truly are please Y/N plus I know you're not fine so stop lying I can see through those walls of yours please let me be here for you " he begged. "I don't know you deserve so much better" I responded.

"No I don't you're perfect I couldn't ask for better and I love you not anyone else please I know how your friends were with you and I'm so sorry but I'll help you through that you don't deserve any of this. I swear I'll be here for because I love you" he pleaded and I couldn't resist even though I was scared I had to face my fears. Oddly with Shawn I felt ready to face them. "Yeah okay I'd like to let you chance" I told him smiling goofily. As those words had left my mouth his whole face lighted up.

"Really" he asked surprised. "Yeah because I really like you too and I" before I could finish my sentence Shawn was spinning me around and thanking me. I felt so relieved because holding back my feelings for him was becoming impossible.

And I can say now that I'm super happy of my decision because I'm dating Shawn and it's the most incredible thing. He is always so caring and nice. The thing I love the most is when we cuddle after an awful day it always  managed to light it up. I'm so glad I ended up saying yes. He never betrayed hurt or judged me just as he promised.