Confusion and pain
Runs through my veins
The only thing I know now is basic functions
Eat
Do chores
Sleep
Study
"I'm okay"
No matter what I touch
I can't feel the world anymore
Maybe it's because the world really isn't real
Emotions I've mastered so far
Is anger
And numbness
Sometimes I'm way too happy
Other times I'm way to sad
I only know black and white
I just want to know grey
But I don't know how to reach it
I'm out of control
I ran my fingers over my scars today
White lines
Pink lumps
Past that I can hardly remember
God I hardly know anything
My mind is sticky cotton
My heart is no longer there
I am a puppet
Tied up by my demons
My meds
My inner survivalist
There is so much
Yet nothing
Screaming in my brain
These thoughts are so loud
Like a train horn blaring directly into your ear
And nothing I do can quiet it
I don't know how to live anymore
I am not alive
I don't know where I am
I have no idea how to keep going on my own
I need you
I need you
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
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Desolation Boy 2
PoetryThis ones for the people who feel like human errors every day of their lives All poems are from my head, heart & soul !TRIGGER WARNING!