Addicted to doctor forth ✔

8.Un-requited love

Forth nails digging into beam forearms, beam bared the pain he lost in the closeness staring to forth eyes which he miss but he fails to spot the love in forth eyes he can only see the way forth is being restless and fighting with his inner-self

"you cannot really blame me p'forth, this is so absurd" he sneered in high voice only for forth to tighten his grip on beam forearms, beam bite his bottom lip to stop the pain that is piercing in his slim forearms

Observing beam teary eyes forth left his arms with a feeling of aching he don't want to leave he wants to pull beam into a hug keep him closer to him, but he knew he don't have any right he knew he is being wrong with beam but he could not settle his feelings even though he don't be like a beggar again he failed he could not resist to ask beam once again seeing the same rejection in beam eyes he could not comfort himself he is torturing himself from the long lasting love it's been years and beam is still pulling him like a magnet

Forth took a step back making beam worried of the distance forth is showing between them he felt like ages and he don't like the distance between them

"I want to clear some questions with you beam" forth asked with a good glaring which makes beam stiffen

Beam nod while forth is seeing beam agreed to him, he said "sorry for being rude with you, I know I don't have any right to hold you or blackmail you,"

"p'forth," he shook his head not liking the way forth is apologizing to him, he know forth is still having feelings for beam and forth is being vexed up with beam being silent, even after many years forth is still being waiting for beam while beam is being coward

"you know right I am being childish, possessed, psycho, obsessed,"

Beam shook his head regretting the words he spout in irritation he knew how forth loves him he experienced all the caring love form forth he knew forth is not any psychic or obsessed or childish, no, he is not! He knew forth is very caring person and humble to beam but he also accept he did miss those qualities form forth and he know the reason it's because of what beam did!

"p'forth, I understand you're doing all this out of hurt, I am sorry that I hurt you to core..." beam held his tears

While forth shake his head in sadness "its okay, I understand you must have move on right! So it's the reason you're not accepting me, may be you don't like me and it's me who wrong guessed your feelings, I should have taken time but I thought it's been five years and aware of each other feelings so that day I thought to propose you and I did wrong! After all five years I thought we are on same page, how fool of me!" he laughed sarcastically scaring beam

Forth is right he is not a fool, beam did love him as much forth loved beam and he is still loving him

"beam, it's been a long time and I am surprised of myself I am still asking you even though I know you will not accept me, sorry for bothering you beam," tears spooked in forth eyes

Beam wants to hold those cheeks and clean those tears he is about to raised his hand to hold forth cheeks but instead he fisted his fingers into a ball "tell me one reason why you don't love me, is it like you don't have feelings for me, or you don't feel my love to towards you, did I do any mistake? am I over bearing you did I fail your expectations, am I not a good match to you or do you some dream person, tell me anything beam I still could not get out of the rejection I could not take it," his lips quivers, he turned his back to beam he don't want to show his pity face

Beam felt the pain forth is suffering from, he is suffering from the same pain he want to hug forth and tell him he loves his senior then and now too, he is still in love with forth but he turned his heart into rock "so phee you know I don't have feelings for you, sorry phee I apologize for the pain I am causing you,"

Forth turned to beam, he yelled with eyes full of tears "sorry does not fix anything, you made me a fool for five years," his arms locked on waist making gasp for a second

"leave me" beam yelled back for only forth to tighten his lock around beam's waist

"I don't remember a fight or a reason, so what happen? Why did we break up" he again asked with mist filled eyes

Beam loves to stay in those strong arms which is feels protective yet he cannot "we did not break up, I rejected you, get this into your head," he sniped on forth making his heart is bleeding internally

"then why did you kiss me, why did you let me touch you? Why!" he asked in a more bitter crying tone

Beam made his spine straighten "I just experiment you,"

"what?" forth frown in confusion he slowly left beam's waist he is not his beam, his beam is innocent and naive the present beam is not his, his beam will always be a good natured, polite and humble school boy who always listens to forth and a good student

"thank you, I can move on from you..." forth gritted his teeth

"finally you're doing good in moving on," beam held his sob and tears he pulled a straight face

Forth punched on near-by wall "get out," he yelled

Beam got terrified he looked to bleeding knuckles he tried take a look but forth raised his hand stopping beam in spot "get the shit out of my sight" he yelled

Beam sobbing he sprints out of, walking to his working room he sat squatted leaning to one of the wall he is sobbing so hard
"marrying you, was my dream p', but I cannot, I feel like I will leave you some you day, please p' try to understand."

Beam sobbing hard he is becoming breathless and his head is dizzy he is suffocating to breath with incoherent sobs

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