Poetry

Powerful

I try to remember back in time where everything was so black and white
Where the bad was dark and ugly and the good was sunshine and light

But now I look ahead of me and all I see is grey
I can't help but look back and ask the good memories to stay

People hurt us all the time and it changes us
Sometimes leaving small wounds or crushing our insides like we got ran over by a bus

And then I look at me and wonder how I want things to be
I wanted so many friends but now I don't like having any company

I trust and I lost but that's just part of destiny that's what I learned
My eyes still hold some light but now they're a little stern

I dont know what's ahead of me but it can't be worse
Then the pain I endured worse then a man dying of thirst
I've died and came back so much life gave me a free hearse

For it knows what it throws can beat and kick me down
But I'll always make a smile from a frown

Life is hard and now I live in the grey
No longer waiting at home trying to decay

Its my life and it's time I take charge
I see past lifes lies, its mirage

People put me through hell and I'm back
With fresh ice on my shoulders telling you the flames of hell lack

In suffering and cruelty
I torture myself more mentally
The enemy of my enemy is my friend
So I became at peace with myself good and evil in me band
To form this unstoppable duo who will take over the land

Whatever broke me and what will break me let me thank you in advance
You helped me discover the power in inside is really vast
I'm done being weak more importantly I'm tired of this shackle on my soul called the past
I'm awoken and I'm free and I will not sleep until I make reality like my dreams

To find love and happiness whatever that means
I'm still trying to figure it out and I know I will
When I die I want no  regrets neatly scribbled onto some will.
I'm gonna make this life count till they put me in the ground
I don't want people from my life to come to my funeral to my coffin and surround
And talk about how he had his head in the clouds" but now my feet are touching the ground.

I will love and laugh and I will never be dragged down back into that state of misery
For now on I live my life for me.