Chapter 12 "Dates & Realizations" Part 1

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\Selena's POV/ 

Is it bad I can't find one single dress to wear? Ugh, what the hell? I go through everything I have. I found a strapless pink dress that was quite long, a yellow knee length dress with one strap, and then a purple short dress with both straps that was above my knees... I don't think I could pull off any of them. 

I sit down on the bed trying to relax from my frustration. I have always been self concious of my body so I hate that I'm wearing a dress. I don't think I ever explained how I look... Being short comes with me having my big thighs with NO THIGH GAP! Which in today's society, that is apperantly very important for some reason that I don't understand why. Along with the big thighs, the big ass that I don't think anyone would tap. Basically, I have curves that I'm insecure about. Maybe there are girls out there who feel the same way as me. I honestly am even questioning how the hell I'm even going on this date when I look the way I look. 

A knock on my door happened, 

"Hey, can I come in?" it was Riker. 

"Yeah," I say while throwing a dress on my bed. He walks in with his blue jeans on and striped jacket and not to forget, blue shirt. Of course, his favorite color is blue. 

"Trying to find a dress? I heard about your date," he says. I sigh and nod. 

"But none of them would look good on me," I say. Riker picks up the red then the pink then the yellow and examines them. He shakes his head, 

"You would probably look good in any of these, to be honest." I couldn't help but laugh. 

"Seriously, why are you so negative about that?" he asks me sitting down next to me on Rydel's hello kitty bed. 

"I am not...attractive. I couldn't pull those off. I have.. ugh, your a guy, you wouldn't understand," I say to him. He rolls his eyes, 

"I have a sister, mom and cousins and .. yeah, try me," he seems so confident. 

"I have big thighs, butt, and everything! Everyone is so perfectly skinny and nice bodies that can fit into any nice dress they tried," I yell by now. His eyes go wide, 

"Seriously? No offense but that was freaking stupid. You're beautiful, everyone is. Not by body shape, but by personalities and when it comes to you, your probably one of the most beautiful!" Riker says. I couldn't help but smile because that was so very sweet. No one has ever told me that. 

"Thank you, Riker!" I say and hug him wrapping my arms around his waist and he hugs me back. We pull away and he smiled, 

"Now.. I say try on the yellow dress. Yellow is your favorite color and it brightens everything up." 

I nod and go into the bathroom and put it on. It was actually very beautiful and he was right, it felt good to be in it. I put on some one or two inch high heels that were black. I really need to get a tan to be honest because I could see my white legs... they weren't too bad I guess. I put on a necklace and some bracelets. 

I go down the stairs and into the living room and I could see Ross and Riker along with their mom, 

"Oh my gosh, hon, you look great!" their mom would say hugging me. 

"Thank you," I say smiling. I tell Riker thank you for helping me and he hugs me as well. I look at Ross and he just stood staring at me. 

"Ross? Anything you'd like to say to Selena?" Riker asks. 

"Um... You look... good. I guess," he says shyly. I shrug. He still hates me so I guess thats' why he won't say a single nice thing. I sigh and say I'll be back by midnight. I walk out of the house ready for a good night. 

Hey guys! I feel like we should go into Ross' POV now ;) So, now we are in Ross's mind set. Enjoy!

\Ross's POV/

I couldn't describe it. She stood there looking so beautiful. I couldn't keep my eyes off her. I know she's going after this other guy. But, my heart cannot contain the burning passion I'm secretly keeping. I hate her though. She hates me. There is supposed to be a difference between loving someone and hating someone. To me, when it comes to her and I. I can't seperate the two feelings. One day, she can piss me off so much and I want her gone, out of my house. Yet, the next, I feel like we have so much fun together and I want more of those days. If I keep waiting and she ends up hitting it off with this guy, It'll be too late and I can't be able to listen to the silly love songs the same. Maybe the one that'll remind me of her will be, "When I was your man" by Bruno Mars. Oh, who am I kidding? I wasn't even her man in the first place... 

"Ross, you okay?" Riker questions me. 

I shake my head and run into mine and Rocky's room. I fall onto my bed and I get so pissed at myself. I hated Selena for like six years or more and I don't understand how now that she's going out with this guy and all of a sudden, I feel the urge to hold her and kiss her and just be with her anytime of day. God, why is this so complicated? 

I heard someone walk in, 

"Ross. I know you're not okay," he said. It's Riker. Of course. 

"It's nothing Riker. Give me a break," I say groaning into my pillow. 

"I know thats' not true. Your my brother.. I known you forever," he laughs and sits down by me. 

I sigh and sit up. 

"You know Selena and I hate each other.. but now.. since she came around to stay over for the weeks while Rydel has gone away. I have been developing these.. feelings. At first, she was a pain in my ass like at the first night when I flipped her off and shit. But, now, I think I'm sort of wrong about her," I try saying and I think I'm going to crack under so much pressure. What is going on with me?? 

"Ross.." he says continuing and putting his hand on my shoulder. 

"I think you like her. As in, you like her where you want to hold her and maybe even kiss her and just be with her all the time. I saw you guys in the kitchen and besides saying, fuck you, at the end. It seemed like you guys were having fun. I know you guys say you hate each other and you act it all the time but.. I think their is something between you two. You just don't have the guts to admit it." 

Every word he said sort of spoke to me in a way that is unexplainable, I couldn't believe what I was hearing... oh my god. I stood up and ran my fingers through my hair. 

"Oh my god....I like Selena." 

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