The Enigmatic Twins

46 : Another Problem

"I s- should get going. I'm sorry If I bother you. I... I'm sorry." Nakatungong ani niya at tumalikod na.

Naikuyom ko naman ang kamay ko ng wala sa oras, "Fuck you, Kleid." Sabi ko at humikbi. Napalingon naman siya sa 'kin at gulat na tinignan ako. Bakit? Ngayon lang ba may nag sabi sa kanya ng fuck you? Then good.

"I hate you," I started. "Ito ka na naman. Pagkatapos ng mga sinabi mo ngayon aalis ka na? You'll leave me again hangin'. Sige umalis ka, iwan mo ulit ako. And here am I again, the stupid me falling again on the words you said."

"Ganon na lang ba ulit? Why, Klei, why?" I cried. Inis kong pinunasan ang luha ko, "Ganon ba kadali sayong iwan ako? Gaano ka ka-satisfy paglaruan ang feelings ko? Na pagkatapos ng mga sinabi mo aalis ka na ulit na para bang wala kang ginawa. Fuck! I hate you! I fucking hate you for making me feel this way. I hate you for hurting me, I hate you for fucking leaving!"

"Shei,"

"NO! I hate you... I hate you..." Hindi ko na napigilan at napaupo nalang ako. God, I'm so weak when it comes to him.

"Shei,"

"I hate you, Kei."

"I hate you because of this."

"I hate you because I fucking hate myself because I am stupid."

"And I hate you that I hate myself more because even know I still love you."

I still love him.

Sorry, tanga kasi ako e.

Ganon talaga, nagiging tanga tayo dahil sa taong mahal natin. Tanga dahil nagmahal ng maling tao pero mas tanga kasi iniwan ka na nga pero mahal mo parin. Ang vovo ko diba? Gawa na ba ko ng squad natin? Alam kong marami tayong tanga.

"Shhh, please don't cry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." He said and I suddenly felt electrified when his hand touches my cheeks.

Lalo naman akong napaiyak and I know why. Damn this tears, wala yatang balak huminto. Pero tila ba huminto ang mundo ko nang masilayan ko ang pagpatak ng luha mula sa mga mata niya. It hurts more seeing him cry.

Kusang tumaas ang kamay ko at marahang pinunasan ang basang pisngi niya. He closed his eyes and one of his hand touches my hand one on his cheeks. I suddenly felt his grip tightened like he doesn't want to let it go. And that makes me cry even more. Why, Klei? Why now?

Bakit ngayon pa kung kalian magulo ang lahat.

"I missed you." He whispered.

I sighed. Damn this feeling, "I missed you too." I won't deny it anymore. Tanga ko eh.

HELL

Napahinto ako sa paglalakad nang marinig ko ang malakas na hiyawan mula sa labas ng arena ng Gruzenford High. Bigla kong naalala na ngayon na pala ang final fight ni Damon.

"Something wrong?" tanong ng katabi ko. Tinignan ko siya tsaka hinila papasok ng arena. "Let's watch." I said.

"I thought you don't like watching?" he asked but I didn't bother answering. I suddenly felt something is happening and I need to know that. I can't just leave without knowing what it is.

Sumalubong agad ang dumadagungdong na hiyawan ng tao sa paligid nang makapasok kami. Fuck. I frown and look around. Lahat sila wild. May mga nagpupustahan pa sa paligid akala mo naman may maiibubuti sa kanila yon. Should I not watch? Naiirita na agad ako.