Dear Diary

THEIR CARING

Dear Diary

I know I hurt her. I never wanted to. But I had no option. I can't live with her normally like any married couple. I can't give her my feeling knowing that she will leave me one day.

Maybe she has feeling for me. Maybe she used to have me in her life. Maybe she is now comfortable for being close to me. She even comfortable for my touches and having sex with me. But she will leave me when she finds her love again.

I know she is faithful wife. I'm sure she won't do anything wrong. I trust her completely on my honor. But I can't trust her on my heart. I can't give her my heart. She will hurt me again. She always does. And I can't take it anymore.

I must stay detached from her. What happened was just for saving her. It won't change anything between us. She is still my wife but not my love

Dear Diary

Say whatever you want to say Rishabh. I know that you love me. I'm sure of that. You forgot that I was conscious sometimes. I saw how you were so worry about me. I saw the fair in your eyes of losing me. And I felt your love in your touches.

You love me madly and unconditionally. I don't know why you are still hiding you feeling. I don't know why you keep lying about your love.

Don't worry Rishabh. I will be waiting for you. I will wait until you open your heart to me again. I will wait for you to show me your love again. You waited for me when I didn't love you at all. I will wait for you when I know you love me but you are just keeping your love in your heart. No matter how hard it is. No matter how much you hurt me with your words. I will wait for you. Because I know, you love me.

Days passed and they both were at the same routine like before. Working all day at the hospital and at night, they sleep in separate rooms.

After a month

RK was getting ready to go to medical conference. And he was going out of the house. Madhu came to say him goodbye.

"Did you check your bag? I backed everything you need. But you should check it if you need anything else" Madhu

"No everything is there. Thank you" RK

"Please take care of yourself. It is cold there now. If you will go out at night please wear heavy clothes" Madhu

"Don't worry. I will take care. You too take care of yourself. I didn't want to go and leave you now. You didn't gain your health completely. I noticed you were dizzy yesterday. Please don't exhaust yourself at work. You should stay here and don't go to the hospital" RK

"I will get bored if I stay her all day doing nothing. Don't worry about me. I will be ok. But please don't be late" Madhu

"I don't know why you refused to go and stay with your mother until I come back. I will be worry about you" RK

"I'll be ok. This is my home and I can't leave it. Don't worry about me and take care of yourself" Madhu

"Ok at least will you please make the blood test I told you about? I want to know your hemoglobin rate. Maybe because of the blood lose you are still weak" RK

"Ok I will do the test tomorrow" Madhu

"You will tell me the results ok" RK

"Sure. I will tell you. Now go you will be late for your flight" Madhu

"I'm going. I will be here next Monday. I will stay there for a week at maximum" RK

"Stay safe and enjoy your time there. Take a lot of pics there ok" Madhu