Dear Diary

WONDERFUL MOTHER

"Give me one reason makes you go back to that man?" RK tried to understand his mother

"Because I love him. I always loved him. All my life I am loving him" Radha

"What do you mean all your life? You know him after your divorce from papa, right?" RK

"No Rishabh I loved him before I know your father. I always loved him. Before your father and when I was with your father and after divorcing your father. He is the only man I loved all my life" Radha confessed her love and only love to her son giving him a shock.

Seeing her son falling on the couch from the shock she thought she owed him explanation so she started to tell him the whole story

"I met him at college. We loved each other a lot. But my family refused our marriage. He was poor and from simple family.

After my graduation my family arranged my marriage with your father. I thought if I can't marry the one I love. All the men out there are the same for me. I accepted your father proposal with my mind. He was successful doctor rich and good looking man from famous family so I accepted to marry him.

After my marriage, I tried my best to be good wife to your father. But I couldn't love him. I felt he loved me. But I couldn't give him my heart in return. I was mad at him and myself that I couldn't love him.

Our life were full of problems. I couldn't accept the slightest mistake from him. Your father knew that I didn't love him. He tried so hard but I just couldn't.

He started to run away from our problems to his work. Most of the time he was away. Our life was miserable. Till the day I got pregnant with you.

Your father started to have hope again in our marriage. He started to care again for me and you. But all my time and all my love was for you only. I neglected your father and ignored him completely. And get myself busy with you.

Years passed. I was breathing but I wasn't alive. Your father was living his life in work only. And I was living mine as your mother only. I missed to feel love to someone and being loved by him.

One day I met Kuku Ji in my friend's wedding. We started to meet again. He started his own business and he was very successful in it.

After a while, I felt that if I stayed with your father I would cheat on him. And I respected your father too much not to do this to him or you. So I decided to divorce your father and marry Kuku ji.

He was rich that time and my family couldn't refuse him again. Your father asked me not to tell you anything. And he told you that I divorced him because he was busy and not caring for us both.

Do you know now why I forgive him? Because I know, I can't live without him. We both love each other and we can't live without each other" Radha

"You still love him after what he did to you?" RK was in tears

"If you love someone you will accept anything to be with them. No matter what will happen. You will surprised for the things you will do or sacrifice for them" Radha

"And my father didn't he deserve your love?" RK whispered in broken tone

"I didn't deserve his love not the opposed. You can't control your heart to love someone. I wish if I could love your father. I wish if I didn't have to leave him or you.

But I couldn't love him. I couldn't forget my love to Kuku ji. It would save the three of us a lot of pain. Do you think it was easy for me to leave you? No it wasn't" Radha

"It wasn't easy for me to be left for your love to another man" RK felt hurt from her

"I know I hurt you by leaving you. And I hurt you more now by telling you the truth. But you have to know the truth" Radha