Going the Distance (Book #1 of Distance series)

22: Faith

"Say it again, Sophia."

Pagkapasok na pagkapasok namin ng hotel room ay isinandal ako ni Andy sa pader. I flinch at the contact of the cold wall with my bare back and the airconditioning generally goose-pimples my skin. But the heat of his beath against my neck has easily distracted me from the cold.

"I want you."

"One more," utos niya. He furiously slides down the straps of my dress then kisses my shoulder. My chest after. His one hand is cupping my face while the other travels down my back. His arm wraps me around my waist l, pulling me against him. My body obliges.

"I want you, Adrian."

He seeks my mouth hungrily as he tunnels into my hair. I slip my arms around his neck, taking his suit off and pulling him close. I love hearing him gasp before me.

"And I want you more, Sophia," he murmurs against my mouth then he kisses me harder.

Tinugunan ko ang maiinit niyang halik. Humigpit pa nang husto ang kapit ko sa kanyang balikat ko sa kanya ngunit kinuha niya ang mga kamay ko at isinandal ang mga iyon sa pader na para bang wala akong kalaban-laban. He is strong and gentle at the same time. I cannot deduce which is greater between the two, but I love the feeling of being controlled by him.

Until I realize that his kisses are different. They're deeper than before, wild, and no holds barred. Kanina mo pa dapat na-realize iyan, Sophie, saway ng konsyensya ko.

"I want you now..." Andy groans as he presses closer. I can feel him hard against me and the brushing or our bodies send me the hot shivers I have never felt before.

Holy crap! He's really sending me the signals that he wants to make love to me now. I might've sent him the signs too. Because I want him too. Nararamdaman kong gusto na rin ng katawan kong ipakaloob ang sarili sa kanya. I want him to grab me and take me to that bed. Possess me there. Get lost totally.

"Make love to me, Sophia." Lumuwag ang pagkakahawak niya sa mga kamay ko. Kusang gumapang ang mga ito sa dibdib niya. Hinatak ko ang puti niyang undershirt. Saglit kaming nagkatitigan. Pero para akong napipipi dahil hindi ko man lang masambit ang simpleng salita na "yes".

Go for it girl! It's my inner heroine, screaming from within. This guy is obviously crazy about you and I know you're mad about him too.

But I just can't seem to say yes.

Pinugpog niya muli ako ng maiinit niyang halik ngunit hindi ko na magawang gantihan ang mga iyon. Bigla ay nagkaroon ako ng inhibitions. Gustong-gusto nang magpa-angkin ng katawan ko sa kanya... pero hindi pa handa ang kaluluwa ko.

Huminto siya at tiningnan ako ulit. He's wondering probably why suddenly I become stiff like a statue. Pero hindi ko na lang alam kung saan nanggaling ang puwersa na nagbigay sa akin ng lakas para makatango. Ang mga mata niya siguro. Nakakatunaw kasi ang mga tingin niya. A pair of dusty browns and forest greens looking fixedly at my plain brown orbs.

They say the eyes are windows to the soul. Ulo ko lamang ang gumalaw ngunit "oo" rin kaya ang pinapahiwatig ng mga mata ko?

"Are you sure?" he asks.

Kinagat ko ang ibaba kong labi. Whilst his arm leans against the wall and his other hand on my shoulder, he bows down and rests his forehead to mine. "Tell me yes. The bed warrior in me is going to capture you, baby," he says naughtily. "You can't resist me, I promise."

I chuckle.

"No, seriously, Sophia. Are you ready?" Kita ko sa mga mata niya at dama ko sa tono ng kanyang pananalita ang sinseridad sa pagtatanong. It's a total paradigm shift from his playfulness.