Unspoken Words

| heart talk |

Author's Note:

Hi! This not an update but in a form of poem. I just want to release my feelings. I might do something not good if I just keep it in myself.... Here goes nothing.

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To the guy whom I hold on to,

I've been that girl who always dreams on

Having a perfect relationship with someone

Whom I love, the first and last.

Hopeless romantic, though.

It's been eighteen years, since birth,

I haven't experience the power of love.

What love can do to people.

I've been on crushes,

So head over heels.

But I just end up staring at them in a distance.

Not until I met you.

I've been through a lot of heartbreaks

A heartbreaks of single.

It sucks to know to it's painful to fall in love

When you are single than to fall in love

When you are in a relationship.

I was so curious...

I want to know what is the feeling of having

A relationship with someone you love.

It is happy? Sad? Painful?

I like you.

But I'm afraid I might get rejected again.

Falling in love again that only the floor will catch you.

And so, I tried.

We're having a late night conversations.

Exchanging phone calls until three o'clock in the morning

It's just feel so right.

It feel so estatic, so addictive.

To the point that I'm so independent to you

And don't want to let go of you.

The time has come and I did not expect it.

At last, I finally found you.

Not exactly my ideal man, but one my blessings in life.

From the moment you said you want to court me,

That's also the moment I told myself that,

This is it! He's the one!

I prayed to God and asked him for signs.

Those signs...

We never said I love you's

But I was contented.

I will wait for the right time to come...

Someday, we will exchange those words,

Those three words-I love you.

I believe that there is no such thing as perfect relationship.

We fight, we argue.

Typical scenes but in the end, we still forgive each other.

But God has tested us.

There are some points that I want to give up

Thinking that,

Is this relationship still working?

I know, you are not yet mine

I want to... But how?

How can I say yes if I can't read your eyes?

If there is still a missing piece in your life,

That I cannot find the another one?

If I barely know you?

It feels like we're strangers to each other.

I hope you do realize that.

That I care for you.

I have time for you.

I want you to be my first and last...

But the fate seems so selfish.

It gives me many realization.

It made me confused.

Sometimes,

I'm thinking of giving up.

But the fact that you made a promise,

I hold onto it.

I trust you.

Your promises are the reason why I'm still holding on.

Please. . . Don't break it.

Because I might slowly let go of my hand in holding onto you.

And in one snap,

Everything we plan.

Vanish like a bubble. . . And you'll never come back.

Lovingly yours,

The girl who is always there beside you