Unspoken Words

2 || What Are We

Author's Note

This poem is a free-verse made by my classmate, Cresmarie Besas, and I for our performance task, a spoken poetry in our subject, Oral Communication in Context.

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You are the first and last thing on my mind,

My reason to look forward each and everyday.

You enter into my life out of nowhere and

Suddenly. . . You meant everything to me.

I want you, all of you. . .

Your flaws, your mistakes, your imperfections
I choose you. . . and I'll always keep on choosing you.

Maybe that's why I loved you even more.

You are the reason why I continue to fight for life.

My life. . . and my everything.

There are two types of pain:

The one that hurts you,

And the one that changes you.

You changed me. . . Then you make me feel is hard to explain.

You are the reason why I laugh, the reason behind my smile.

My inspiration and my strength.

But I guess, everything we had is no longer there.

Just like what you said, "time to realize the reality",

Suddenly, you go away and never came back.

I've always been here for you and I hope that one day,

You'll realize,

That you were never alone.

But still, I'm waiting for you,

Waiting for you to come back,

Waiting for a second chance, a second chance,

To be happy, with you.

But it's just a dream that can never be real

Until I finally gave up

When you left me,

I feel like there's something missing

My days became weeks, months.

When you left me,

You are the reason behind my tears

The reason behind my sadness, my distraction and my weakness.

You had me until you lost me and you're sorry!?

Now that I've move on and doing fine without you

You want me back? In your life?! You left me like it was nothing.

I don't want you to see me this way.

I don't want you to give the satisfaction of seeing me in pain.

If you only knew that the love I had for you was true.

When I gave you up that day, I gave you up for good.

I bet you wish you had my love again

But now it's too late. You broke my heart.

I'm in a war between remembering and forgetting

Trying not to care anymore

I remember every word you told me and I can't stop thinking about it. . . I just can't.

I remember all those nights where where we stayed up late talking to each other that I don't mind losing sleep over.

I need to stop chasing someone who can never be mine.

A someone who never sees my worth, I'm tired.

Tired of being nothing to you, tired of being worthless to you,

I'm tired.

Someday,

You will see me happy,

You will see me laughing,

And see me fighting

But you're not the reason anymore.

A someone who makes me laugh and happy, who sees my worth

A someone who deserves me and my love and whom I deserve and his love

A someone who deserves to fight for and someone who will be with me,

Until the end.

I don't want to love you anymore.

But for some reason,

No matter how much you hurt me. . .

I still love you.

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