obsession by default

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Song: Zedd - Beautiful Now ft. Jon Bellion
(tbh if you don't like this, you're dumb. that's saying enough. go listen to it.)

free will isn't so free.
my decisions are composed of makeshift 
heartbeats sent to tear you apart. 
i don't know how to not love you
and that's the problem with 
creating a version of me without you.
there are flaws traced onto my wrist,
you were the parts of life that i can't resist.
they tell you to tend to the garden of your mind,
but every time a flower blooms,
it smells like you.

i can't tell if i've lost my mind
or if i've become bankrupt by loaning out my feelings
for you with little to no interest-
this is not a scam, this is not a cheat.
my heart doesn't know how to beat
without fear of losing you,
so you are an adrenaline rush
that i feel when i think about 
all of the silly love quotes 
and how real they really are
when you're in this state of mind. 

i can feel my memories fading away,
but for you, i hope they'd stay. 

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