“I don’t blame him,” I say. “I just hate getting my hopes up and him not calling. It sucks Mom. I will give anything for Dad to be here.” My voice rising as I finish talking.
Mom has tears in her eyes. “You don’t think I miss him too? That when he calls saying he can’t video chat I don’t feel like crap? Because I do Nate. I want your father back here, with us, probably more than you.”
“Mom I’m sorry,” I say, but she isn’t done speaking.
“Did you know your father and I were going to try for another child when you were little?” she asks and I shake my head. She looks down, tearing falling onto her cheeks. “I was so excited to have another child, maybe even a girl. I was happy to be giving you a sibling, a friend, but one day your father comes home and doesn’t even look at me. I was scared, I was thinking the worst.
That night, when I confronted him, he told me flat out he’s joining the military and he thinks he’ll be deployed within a few months. Nate, I swore a part of my heart shattered. My dream was to have two kids, maybe more. Your father knew that and that’s why he tried keeping him going into the military a secret for as long as possible. When he told me, I walked out and cried myself to sleep.
Sometimes, I wonder if we can still try for another child, but then I realize Dad will just be going back to duty if he did get leave. Sometimes I wonder if the military is his top priority and I hate thinking that, but I think it’s true. I mean, when was the last time he was home Nate?” She looks up at me, wanting me to answer.
“Two years,” I mumble.
“Exactly. However, I am grateful he is still able to come home—alive.” Mom takes a seat at the counter across from me, wiping her tears with a napkin. “I just want him home for good Nate, but I don’t know if that will happen.”
I get up from my seat and hug her. I wish my dad can come home for good too. If not for me, then for Mom.
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The whole day passed quickly. Mom and I went to a movie then dinner before coming back to the house. I feel bad for bringing up Dad at breakfast because it seemed to have dampened Mom’s mood. I know she’s waiting for a call to say Dad can’t video chat tonight, but I hope he does. Mom needs to see his face and know he’s alright.
I bring my backpack into the living room and sit on the couch. I unzip the bag and take out my folder to do homework. I take out a pen next, glancing at the clock as I sit up. 6:45. I can hear Mom upstairs in her room, probably making sure it is clean enough for when Dad video chats.
I start my homework and try to focus the best I can. I find myself at times clicking the pen, just watching the time. I shake back my attention and continue my assignment.
As I finish up, I put the paper back in my folder before putting in back in my backpack. I set my backpack by the front door before looking at the time—7:10. I look down in frustration, letting out a deep breath through my nostrils. I climb the stairs to my parent’s room. When I reach the door, I can see Mom sitting on the bed, twirling her thumbs, her leg bouncing up and down.
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Dear Nate {Dear #1}
Teen FictionAlison Collins is in a coma and now Nate has her journal. Nate never expected for Alison's brother to give him her journal after the accident. Alison was the girl who always kept to herself yet Nate seemed to always be intrigued. As he reads through...
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