Sad Poems 2

Changed

Changed

Most days I can do it, you would be proud of me.

I carry on without you, and sometimes I'm even happy.

But then something reminds me, a picture a song or even a certain sound.

And I'm right back in all that pain with the darkness all around.

I should be over it some people say.

How, I wish they would show me a way.

Do you ever truly get over loosing somebody you love?

It isn't always enough to know your watching me from above.

Your death changed who I am.

It changed how I see and deal with the rest of them.

I carry on because its what I'm supposed to do.

Its also my way of honoring you.

You left so many things undone.

So I finish them and try to have some fun.

I don't have all the answers, heck I'm not even sure I know the questions anymore.

I just remember it was easier before.

They all want me to be like before, happy and strong.

They didn't know that it was really your strength all along.

With you in my world there wasn't anything I couldn't do.

Now I'm left broken trying to figure out how to live without you.

Since you left my life has taken some crazy turns.

Its for your words of wisdom that my heart yearns.

Some of these turns have been bad.

And if you were here you would be mad.

There are so many paths your death changed.

And I know it can never be the same.

There are so many things that wouldn't have happened if you were still alive.

Some days are so bad I'm not sure I will survive.

I miss how life used to be.

And your face I long to see.

I miss you so much the pain is crushing me.

And I long to be free.

I miss you guys so much

S.N.M.