That Gay Who Catches My Heart

Chapter Twenty-six

"You look so pretty today. Bagay sayo ang pink lipstick mo."

That voice.

I simply knew that voice..

"D-Dewey?"

"Hmmm"

Tanging sagot lang nya. I can feel his breath around my neck na nagpatindig ng balahibo ko sa katawan. I tried to get out from his grip pero mas lalo nya lang hinigpitan ang pagkakayakap sa'kin.

"No. Please stay. Let's stay like this for awhile. Just for awhile."

At mas lalo nya pang hinigpitan ang pagkakayakap sa'kin na tila ba ayaw akong pakawalan.

Confused yet I hug him back. And just like that..we wasted minutes staying just like that.

"Dewey ano bang—"

"I missed you. Miss you so bad."

His voice. It's

manly.

Mas lalo lang akong naguluhan sa mga pinagsasabi nya.

"A-anong ibig mong sabihin? Ano bang nangyayari? May malubhang sakit ka ba?"

He chuckled.

Hindi nya pa rin ako binibitawan. Ganun pa rin ang posisyon namin. Him hugging me from the back.

"I don't even know either. Hindi ko rin alam. All I know is I missed you. Nung mga panahong nawala ka..I've realized that you're something. I don't even know how or what really happened. But one day I just woke up noticing that you're not around and it's kind of weird kasi kusa kang hinahanap ng mga mata ko. It's weird dahil gusto kong makita ang nakakainis mong mukha."

Napasimangot ako sa huling sinabi nya.

"Really, naiinis ako sayo at hindi ko alam kung bakit. You always annoy me. Sa tuwing nakikita kita naaasar ako. Sa tuwing nandyan ka sa paligid gusto kong lamunin ka nalang ng lupa. Naiinis ako sa buhok mong andaming split ends. Sa mukha mong ang oily minsan. Naiinis ako kung paano ka maglakad na para bang walang pakialam sa mundo. I just simply hate you. Your guts of showing people how much you like me. I hate it."

"And yet I hate it even more when you're not around. It drives me crazy. Hindi ko alam na mahahantong sa ganito ang lahat ng nararamdaman kong inis sa'yo. I mean..I don't even find you pretty. Ni hindi ka nga marunong magkilay. Yet I find you—attractive. You attract me. You simply do. Hindi ko alam na mapupunta pala sa atraksyon ang lahat ng inis na nararamdaman ko sa'yo."

Gusto kong mag-react pero walang lumalabas sa bibig ko.

"When I heard that you were sick..pumunta ako sa inyo. But your neighbor said that you were in the hospital and I was already eaten by my cowardness that I didn't go along. Hindi ko alam but I just wanted to see you. To know kung okay ka lang ba. That's why I texted you but you didn't reply. And it made me think of why am I even worried? Why do you worry me so much?"

Sya pala yung nag text?

Gusto ko sanang sumagot pero bakit hindi ako makapagsalita? Napepe na ba ako?

"Yes I am gay. I wear concealer and stuff. My eyebrows are always on fleak than yours. My voice is not masculine. The way I move is slightly feminine. I am sensitive about my skin color. I even act more feminine than you. I hate sunlight. I hate carrying heavy things. I don't even have the abs yet I love seeing them with other males. I am gay and I simply doesn't fall with any females—until I met you. You just changed everything in a snap. I don't know what you did but you changed my perspective. Now I'm inlove. Inlove with a female. Inlove with you. I'm inlove with Leah Buendia. Even the universe wouldn't believe it but I am truly inlove with you. You captured my heart so you must take your responsibility."

Suminghap sya at hinawakan nya ako sa balikat at dahan-dahang inikot paharap sa kanya.

"Be my girlfriend."

Shock.

Was the ultimate word I can describe with what I feel the moment he said that.

Our eye's locked. His gaze full of sincerity and love. I can't even believe this is really happening!

Then suddenly..his lips met mine as the rain pours down. We stayed there. Just like that. I still can't find the right words to say. I somehow was left..voiceless.

Voiceless with his kiss. My first kiss.