My dear friend, Emma,
A lot has happened, but for the sake of my sanity, I won't list everything. But I've been acting differently, I think, and it's caused the Blessing to fade.
And I have no one to blame but myself.
It really is my fault. I've been a terrible girlfriend, so I understand why he no longer wants to be with me.
To tell you the truth, Emmy...
I've been expecting this for a while now.
I've shut out my friends because it hurts me to hurt them. But there's one I haven't been avoiding. WriterGrl360
I'm extremely selfish, I know. But in one and a half weeks, we haven't argued once. I enjoy talking to her and never once have I accidentally hurt her, I think. Whether she knows it or not just talking to her has been enough to distract me from the guilt of stressing out my mom, the shame of hurting my friends, the fact you are gone, the thoughts that I'm alone.
I'm sorry to everyone. Writer, I'm grateful that you've put up with me, a needy bitch who does nothing good. You've helped me a lot, and I understand if you want to leave me to. I get it.
I still miss you, Emmy.
~Lexi/Cress/Cressy/Ise/Spoopy
