Solangelo Oneshots

Request #2

Yes, I know. I hate myself too.

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For: nmknmp9708

Requested lines: 6, 7

WARNING: Swearing

Note: This sort of turned angst-y, sorry if this isn't how you wanted it, let me know if you want it changed!

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Will Solace gave out a small sigh as he stood outside of Nico's apartment, the corners of his lips turned down. He loosened up a bit before knocking on the door, trying his hardest not to run away when he heard fast footsteps falling on the other side. A sleepy looking Nico opened the door and anticipating the moment that was soon to follow, Will stuck his foot in between the door frame before Nico could slam it back shut.

"Give me 5 minutes."

Nico stared at the beautiful boy in front of him, his eyes barely believing what was in front of him. He couldn't deal with this right now.

He wouldn't.

"Will, I can't. I ... I'm sorry .. ," Nico attempted to shut the door but Will pushed himself inside, closing the door behind him without taking his eyes off the darker haired boy.

"Nico."

And suddenly everything came rushing back in.

Memories of soft kisses every two minutes because "I can't stop myself, really", cuddling after a particularly hard day, taking stupid walks in the park early in the morning and late at night, whispering sweet ''I love you's'' into each other's ears.

Everything that Will had ever done. It all hit Nico at once, his hands shook slightly as the most painful moment of them all seeped into his brain.

"Leave."

Will entangled in his bed sheets with someone else. Will begging on his knees and crying for just one more chance. Nico asking with a silent anger, "How long has this been going on?"

"Please, just leave Will."

The older stopped for a second, he never realized how good his name sounded on Nico's lips.

Will turned around to face the other boy, he reached out as if to hold him but thought better of it at the last second. Hands retreating back, Will spoke, "5. Minutes." A soft, pleading whisper.

Nico's vision was blurring again and he wiped his eyes with the back of his hand, urging himself not to cry. Not again.

Will's heart nearly broke right then and there, all over again.

Nico didn't move, still standing silently in front of the door with his arms crossed, head down. He gave a small nod. Will gave out a small sigh of relief as he began, "I know that I've done some .. things."

Nico looked up, eyes rimmed with red.

"And I don't expect you to be completely okay with everything just yet but all I'm asking from you is another chance. Give me one more chance."

Nico gave Will a rue smile, an expression that didn't match how sad his eyes were.

"A chance? You want a chance? How about telling me why you were cheating on me?" Nico's voice shook as he continued to speak.

"How about telling me why the fuck there was another man in my bed Will Solace?" His voice was low and that hurt Will more than anything else because fuck, why wasn't he screaming and yelling? Why wasn't he being extremely angry so that Will could just take him in his arms and hold him.

"Nico. Baby." Will's voice held so much desperation that even Will could see how pathetic this really was. Nico clenched his fists and crossed his arms tighter around himself.

Because yes, he wanted to forgive Will and wanted to be loved and held. Nico di Angelo wanted to feel that warmth and that feeling of happiness he'd become unaccustomed to in the last two months but he couldn't, not after what Will had done to him.

"Don't you dare," Say it again, one more time. "Don't you fucking DARE call me that Will Solace. Do you know how long I felt like shit because of you? Do you know-" Don't cry, don't cry now damn it. "-how much it actually hurt to love for 2 months? How much it pained me to sleep because every time I took a step into my room all I could see was-"

Nico choked on his words, uncrossing his arms he ran a hand through his hair in an attempt to calm himself down. "I fucking endured all those pathetic," They weren't pathetic, I loved them. I love you. "-little voice mails you left on my phones and tried to get over you and now after two months you show up at my door when my life was finally falling back into place? You little piece of-"

And that's when he started to cry.

Because as much he hated Will Solace, he loved him just as much.

Will stood there silently, a tear falling down his cheek. His heart wrenched and all he wanted to do was reach out and hold Nico, tell him it was going to be okay and that he was so sorry. So he did, and Nico didn't pull away.

Nico didn't pull away at all, he buried himself deeper into Will's chest because of how much he'd missed the comfort, the smell, the security. He cried and choked out words while Will stroked his hair.

"You need t-to leave." He mumbled while his grip tightened around Will, "P-please just go already."

Will closed his eyes and rested his head on top of Nico's, whispering "It's okay to cry," and finally he said the three words that Nico loved and hated so much.

"I love you."

Nico stiffened and slowly peeled himself away from Will, how? How could he put so much emotion into those words with so much confidence?

I love you too, so much that it fucking hurts me.

Only it came out as, "You .. n-need to leave. Now."

Will almost screamed as Nico gently tugged his arm, opening the door. Will stood directly in front of Nico outside of the house as he desperately got down on his knees. He locked his arms tight around Nico's legs and rested his head on his stomach, crying and begging. Nico refused to look down and pushed Will away, his lips set in a hard line as tears ran down his face.

Don't go.

"Goodbye Will." Nico shut the door and instantly started crying, one hand on the doorknob as he rested his head on the door. His body shook silently and he sank low to the floor, curling up against the door.

Will Solace was also down on the floor, fists helplessly up against the door. His cries were soft and breathy, mixed with a few whispered heartbroken apologies.

Hours later, they both fell asleep in the same position.

Nico, lulled to sleep by the soft breaths that he could still hear from the other side of the door and Will, fading to unconsciousness knowing that although Nico hated him he would still be there on the other side. Loving him silently.