Inception (TaeTen)

C H A P T E R 15

// TRIGGER WARNING
This chapter contains suicidal thoughts and suicide attempt
Please read it with caution
Stay safe and take care

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It has been almost a week since Yuta and Winwin's breakup, and both of them haven't talked to each other since then.
Yuta is obviously still mad at Winwin for breaking his heart.
And claimed that even if Winwin ever asks him out again, he will definitely reject him.

However, deep inside, Winwin still owns a special place in Yuta's heart

How much he wished he could get over him and move on with his life, but it seems that it just impossible to get over him.

Winwin has been starving himself for days.

He hasn't eaten anything since the break up with the love of his life.
He couldn't even fall asleep at night.
He hates himself for hurting the one he loves.

He just couldn't get over the fact that he has broke Yuta's heart.
Who supposed to be his is soul mate.

He hates himself even more every time Taeyong told him how Yuta cried his eyes out thinking that he doesn't love him anymore.

This was the biggest mistake he has ever made in his entire life.
He has been trying to talk to Yuta and explain himself, but Yuta would just walk away from him or doesn't even pick up his calls.

Of course Yuta wouldn't talk to him, for sure he was mad, he was heart broken, he was just dumped by his boyfriend with no reasons.

Winwin's POV
How could I do that to Yuta
How could I break his heart
How could I make him cry
And now he won't trust me ever again
I lost my boyfriend
I lost my soulmate
What's the point of living?
I am the worst boyfriend ever
Yuta is the sweetest guy I have ever met...
He doesn't deserve someone like me...
He should just hate me and go and find someone else, someone much better than me.
Without you ....
My life doesn't mean anything anymore...

I should call Yuta one last time...

Yuta was hanging out with Taeyong when Winwin called him.
"Yuta, I think you two should really talk..." muttered Taeyong.
"What's the point?" mumbled Yuta
"Come on... I know you missed him... just see what he has to say..." said Taeyong.
"There is no way I'm going to answer his call ...."muttered Yuta rejecting the call.

Then a notification popped up.

Text messages

Winwin: Yuta... you are a great addition to my life, you made me a better person...

Winwin:you are the love of my life... against all odds, we found each other...

Winwin: I'm going to miss you so much....
You really are a star....
And you're really mine....
And you always will be....
I met you in the dark....
You lit me up....
You made me feel as though I was enough....
You are my hope
You are my song
You are the oxygen inside these weary lungs
You are my safe place
You are my hope
You are my shelter when it all goes up in smoke
You made me feel like I was living a teenage dream
You are the love of my life...
However this is a forbidden love
I tell others that I'm happy...
But it's killing me inside
Now my heart is broken...

Yuta: Jesus.... Winwin what the hell are you doing.... calm the guy fuck down man...

Yuta: Fuck... Winwin.... where are you...

"Taeyong... I got to go...." shouted Yuta

"Yuta, what's wrong? where are you going"

"It's Winwin... "