Sincerely, Me

31 January 2017

Hey You,

I can't go to homecoming with you after all. You hate dances, and that was a major factor I forgot. I feel awful for not considering your feelings before making the sign. Yes, I made a sign and it was really nerdy and I thought you'd like it. It was a play on elements of the periodic table. 

It said: "Are you made of Copper and Tellurium? Because you're CuTe. Be my date to HoCo?" I thought you might like it, but then I remembered you telling me once you hated dances; they were too crowded for your liking.

Today I was walking around school, and you were completely ignoring me. What did I do this time? Did your friend tell you my plans? (Yes, I texted your friend and asked which sign they thought you'd like best because I found too many great signs. One had Pepe and was all memey.) 

I hate them if they told you, so I guess they'll get beaten up by me if they told you. Yes, I will beat up your friend for telling you, because the more I think about it the more I'm prone to thinking they were the reason for you ignoring me because of logic. 

I was talking with one of my friends, about you of all things, when you decided to start walking beside me. I think you found out, or maybe just are suspicious, but now I'm too paranoid to talk to you. You scared me, in all honesty, and there are so many things I wish I could tell you. I wish I could explain it all, but then I'd want to take it all back because I'm extremely indecisive.

Do you honestly care if I like you? I doubt it because you're just one of the people who are immune to other's emotions. I wish you weren't; that's the only "flawed" quality, but it's not entirely flawed because all it does is keep you from being too attached to bad news. You don't care if the bad news is happy, as long as they're getting emotions out.

How's first hour without me? I bet it's boring because I was the life of the party...er as lively as you can be at 8 am. Does anyone miss me? I doubt it, nobody really liked me in that class. I think you only took me in with your group because you felt bad and obligated. In all honesty, how much does my mom pay you to be my friend? Is that why you're ignoring me because you haven't gotten the green?

It makes sense, you all of a sudden ignoring me if that were the case. Maybe you never wanted to be my friend, but you were getting slipped money because my mom knew you pulled off the "nice kid" act, but I know it's an act. You even told me; well not directly. You and one of your friends talk about weird, and by weird I mean Weird, stuff in another language because nobody understands it. Thank goodness for Google Translate.

Sincerely, Me.

P.S. I still am upset with you : )