You not wanting me was the beginning of me wanting myself.
Thank you.
Thank you for showing me that a boy like you would never be able to care for me
That you were incapable of caring about me
But you lied like you've done it a million times before
I just don't understand how you can fall asleep at night night to me being fully aware that you were lying to my face
How can you lie to someone you care about?
You can't
Which means you didn't care
You never did
And all too often you forced the "I love you's"
Damn you were convincing
But that's the thing about love
People become blind
People become vulnerable
People open up and show you who they really are
And you took advantage of that
You got what you wanted and didn't care of the casualties along the way
And now
You're doing great..
More than great..
And I'm here still broken
Watching as you do the same thing all over again to another girl.
But thank you so much.
Because now I love myself than you ever would have
And now that I've opened my eyes, I see that you are the monster who destroyed the word love for me.
Love Always,
Niki xx
