Lethal Lovers >>Harley Quinn & Joker

Ch 35~ Without Me

Jokers POV

I could feel her body tense up as I whispered the words that replayed in my mind over and over.

I was ready for the end.

I could see her moving on, and seeing this made my ego hit rock bottom. But her finding a life without me being the center focus is what what I'd hoped for.

Harley still held onto her wit and potential, but the life I gave her diminished the false hope she had for this world.

Now she can see what this large rotating rock really stands for. It's a dog eat dog world, and I can see her beginning to hold her own.

She's becoming whom I always saw her to be. But she's holding on to the only thing that's preventing her from fully living what many years she has.

Me.

But now I'm here. Living and breathing. Still the problem.

I didn't look back as I walked out the door. My insides ached as I heard her small whimpers, but I have to leave her.

She's better without me now.

My mind couldn't help but wonder as I looked up at the clouded Gotham sky. A gleaming smile shined against the darkness as I tried to remember the first time I saw her.

As I sat in the metal chair, I couldn't help but not notice the straight jacket I was in. All my attention was on her.

The blonde beauty with the glasses.

I tried telling myself she was just another piece of eye candy, but there was something about her that drew me in.

I could tell by the look in her eyes she believed she could help me.

Oh if she only knew.

"I'm way in too deep for you to help me honey." I laughed, truly entertained by the hopefulness she possessed.

She could be my project.

I can crush every false hope she contains, and show her how meaningless life really is.

"There's always hope Mr J." Harley gleamed, and I couldn't help but long to flip her world upside down.

My very intention was to mold her into whom I wanted. But she ended up changing me in the process.

As time passed I began to care for her more and more. Now I want what's best for her, and I now can see it's without me.

As much as I loathe Poison Ivy, she will keep her safe.

My steps against the long black road began to slow as something held me back. Leaving her this way just didn't feel right.

Maybe it was best for her to hate me, it'll make her moving on easier. But my selfishness got in the way.

I needed one last memory of her to keep me going. I needed to feel her skin one last time.
Without a second thought I started to speed up, until I was running back to her.

Banging through the door, I cravingly looked for the bright colors of pink and blue. My every being longing for her presence.

-"Harley." I breathed, once I caught sight of her face.

Even with tears covering her cheeks, she was as breathtaking as ever.

Striding towards her, I grabbed her waist as her legs wrapped around me. Without a word, my lips crashed into hers. Her body jolting from surprise, but I felt it relax as her hands ran through my hair.

Resting her back against the wall, I swiftly pulled off her clothes, wanting nothing but to hear her moans.

For all the shit I put her through, she deserves to feel as good as I can possibly make her.

Latching my lips against her neck, I began to lightly bite, marking her one last time. I could feel her starting to lose control, and I wasn't far from it.

Kissing any part of her skin I could, I slid inside of her.

I held onto every second I could, locking it into my memory. Holding onto every inch of her, the room filled with uncontrollable sounds as we reached climax.

She was my weakness from the beginning. But seeing the look in her eyes, I've always been hers too.

My mind was a mess as I looked at her confused eyes. She looked as if she's trying to figure out if I'm going to leave or stay and that broke me even more.

-"You deserve more than what I can give you." I breathed out, kissing her forehead.

She began to stumble with her words. But before she could say anything, I continued.

-"You have so much going for you my love. But I'm holding you back. I'm your fault now, and I can't be anymore."

Pain settled in her face as she put the words I said together.

-"But I'm nothing anymore without you. You created me J, I'm yours. I-I don't understand. What am I without you? I'm nothing." She cried out, as she pushed me away from her.

-"You are everything now. Free from letting people control every move you make. Be your own person. Create a life of your own Harley, without anyone making it for you."

I held back from saying anymore, hoping she could see where I was coming from. She still held a confused expression, but her eyes darkened as she glanced over at me.

-"You're leaving me." She whimpered. Seeing her this broken, made me question everything.

But continuing to be in her life will only pluck even more feathers off her wings, until they're all gone.

-"I'm not going anymore baby, come lay beside me." I spoke, patting the spot next to me.

Every word I said made me feel more sick, because I knew it was all a lie.

I'm leaving first thing in the morning and never looking back.

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*finally updated❤️❤️ not too proud of this chapter since it was sort of rushed. But the end is near guys!!! Thanks for all the endless love for this book, I've loved writing it