How I feel when I'm around you (System Of A Down)(EN)

Exploding

-Daron-

We've arrived in Tucson ten minutes ago and I've already sworn multiple times; the damned Arizona's climate is so fucking humid it's making me sweat as crazy despite the temperature not being really high and I feel as if passed under x-rays by someone's gaze. I move a bit and catch a glimpse of Nikki chatting with Serj about who knows what... since that night in which I kept her company and acknowledged what I feel for her, I can't stand being near her even though I want so bad to hold her tight, kiss her until she's breathless, reveal her what I feel for her, but I can't, really...

I suddenly notice that I'm a bit behind all the others and stop and right after I see a feminine figure peeking out of a hidden corner... Tina.

An idea comes up out of nowhere, so I don't draw back nor change direction and I stare at her as she comes near.

«Hi, honey» she begins, with a clearly fake smile plastered on her face.

«Hi, Tina» I greet back and stop her before she talks again «we have to talk, wait for me at the back door after the show.»

«Sure!» she reacts delighted.

«Not a single thing of what you think will happen» I get a subtle pleasure from destroying her expectations «I've got serious things to talk about. See you later» I finish and walk out on her to reach for the others.

When the show is over I collapse on a chair in the backstage, sweaty as fuck, before drying myself with my towel and getting caught into observing the people moving around me and listening to the crowd's noises and its appreciation for the band who's replaced us on stage.

«Hey, are you okay?» Serj touches me on a shoulder and brings me back to reality.

«Yeah, I'm just sweaty and tired. I hate this fucking humid climate, I swear.»

«The others and me are going back to the tour bus so we can take a shower and get changed, also Shavo and John want to hang out in the city. Care to join?»

«I'll surely come so I can shower as well, but I don't feel like joining you for the city tour.»

«Okay.»

Once we're back I surprisingly get to be the first one to use the shower; the water gives such a big relief but I can't make the others wait for too long and I have to hurry. I walk away from the bus when the twilight is almost at its end, wearing black clothes so I can hardly be seen by someone else, and I'm so nervous I can almost feel the electricity coming out of every pore; I arrive where I told the girl to wait for me and the place is strangely empty.

Where the fuck did Tina go?

After this lame switch she's dead to me, sure as hell.

A rustle nearby, then two arms surround my neck from behind and I jump before eagerly setting myself free from that hold and turning to see who's just played this trick.

«Dear, you didn't expect this, did you?» Tina's shrill voice reaches my ears and has the same effect as nails being dragged on a slate.

«You scared me, you stupid!» I reply, very annoyed. «There was no need to set up a scene like this. I told you I've got to talk seriously to you, that's not the start of another series of secret meetings for sex.»

«What's the purpose of this meeting, then?» she returns, looking bothered.

«What I told you earlier today: talking. We have to talk.»

The girl is building up a wall of indifference and stubbornness against me, that's no good. «About what? I've got nothing to say to you.»

I deeply breathe, fighting the urge of getting rid of her with rude gestures and words. «While I do have something to say, instead.»