How I feel when I'm around you (System Of A Down)(EN)

About time!

-Nikki-

As soon as we're all dressed up again and done with smoothing out our hair in order to look ordinary and not give any hint about what took place here we both reach for the bus front door; we see the worried faces of the previously-thrown-out-of-the-bus driver and of the three band members who'd gone into the city for a different evening before most likely receiving a help call from that poor man who witnessed only the smallest and very first part of what really happened, as we thought we would. 

The door gets unlocked after pushing a button and opens itself and a whiffle of warm wind comes inside.

«Good evening, people» Daron steps down the small stairs and gracefully lights up a joint «are you alright?»

«What the hell happened, evil gnome?» Serj's voice has got a hint of danger.

«Well, some privacy was needed so I asked our dear bus driver to have a walk» the other says.

«Asked to have a walk? More like I've been evicted!» the aforementioned man complains before shutting up.

«Was it in your opinion a reason good enough to throw him out of the bus?» Shavo frowns. «Also, what for?»

«Well, I got something fixed up.»

In that moment I get off the vehicle and approach; the bassist's gaze goes from his bandmate to me for several times and his expression is quizzical. «You meant...?»

«Yup» I nod.

«Good, it's about time you guys stopped being pouty kids!» John exclaims. «And now?»

As an aswer for the drummer, the guitarist takes one of my hands and brings it upward to kiss it before giving each other some accomplice looks; Shavo's eyes widen up to the size of tea plates.

«Now we're together.»

After the first moments of disbelief many exclamations come up, joined by rolling eyes, sighs, whistles and big smiles.

«Fuck yeah, that's awesome!» Shavo claps his hands before raising his arms as if thanking some high entity. Looks like the guys reacted pretty well...

«Now get on the bus, we gotta leave» the bus driver says; he looks happier than before but he keeps glaring at the youngest bandmate every time he can, he got really upset by the way he'd been treated earlier.

I nod and start to walk away towards the crew bus but someone catches one of my wrists and I turn to see what's up now.

«Stay with me, please» Daron asks, slightly begging.

«But all my stuff is on the other bus» I answer, unwillingly «how can I get ready for the night?»

«No one gets hurt if you don't wash your teeth and put on pajamas for one night, you know...»

«Well, if it doesn't bother anyone then it's okay» I consent; John catches our moves and understands what's going on and then he smiles and gives an "okay" gesture, so I feel reassured.

While the guys go back and forth between the bathroom and their baggages I take small steps and look at the bunks; I giggle while reading the tags on them, with their names surrounded by many small silly sketches, then I hesitate and don't know whether to wait for Daron or go into the bunk anyway.

«Go ahead» the guitarist's voice distracts me from my thoughts so I boggle at first.

«Are you sure?» I ask without turning around to face him, suddenly feeling shy as fuck.

«Yup, lil thing, I want you to be safe.»

I look around for a moment before kneeling down and crawling into the bunk; they obviously gave him a bunk on the lower level since he's short and that's good for me also because I'm as short as him. It's pretty much identical to my bunk on the crew bus, so I feel comfortable.

«Oooh» the guy sighs heavily as soon as he lies down, pulling the light-coloured curtain to allow us some privacy while I still face the wall «another concert is done, I'm tired as hell... lil thing, you alright? C'mon, face me, you already saw me like this.»

Fighting my kinda anxiety-veiled shyness I turn around and the absence of his black t-shirt results to be breathtaking. God, it reminds me a bit of that dream I had not long ago... I violently blush.

«Freaky, you're so cute when you blush» he mocks me with a malicious bewitching smile that makes my heart race faster; he puts a hand on one of my boiling hot cheeks and surprises me with an unexpectedly chaste kiss, then he waits for me to snuggle with my head against his chest and an arm wrapped around his body in a half hug.

«I like this type of contact and feel like I needed it... you know, as a throwback to those good ol' times» he whispers, somehow happily nostalgic.

«Are you talking about New Year's Eve night, when I had that terrible nightmare and you slept with me being snuggled against you after singing me to sleep?» I ask, in the same tone.

«Yup. It's been one of the best night in months, I think I never had again a more peaceful sleep than that afterwards.»

«Same for me, my nightmares only didn't come when you were with me.»

Silence falls as we just look at each other; for a moment I wonder if this could be the right moment to tell him about that "anonymous" threat message I got days ago, a secret that's eating me from inside, but when I somehow feel ready to talk I notice that Daron is asleep.

No, this wasn't definitely the right moment, we both need to rest, everything can wait.

[Author's note: heeeey! I'm still alive *waves a hand* just been away from home, without wifi, usual shit you know... I'm very happy to update again this story, hope to be able to update again in January before I leave again for university and before having to commit myself only to studying for my upcoming exams (;-;)... thanks for the love you always show for this story! <3]