With Them

Chapter 16 : I Want To Stop

Taeseons POV

Tears rolled down my cheek. I couldn't take it anymore. The penknife in my hand. I was about to do it. Suddenly, a thought entered my mind. Why would I harm myself ? I didn't do anything wrong so why should I suffer ?

I threw the penknife on the floor. I breathed heavily. I was scared but I didn't  know what I feared.

The door swung open.

"TaeSeon! What are you doing?!?!" GD oppa came in. I was lost for words.

Tears just kept rolling down my cheeks and I found myself crying. I dropped to the floor and started sobbing. I felt hopeless and pathetic.

GD came to me and hugged me. He embraced me and wiped my tears away. He ran his hand through my hair and tried to calm me down. My face was placed beside his chest and I tried to stop the tears.

My mind was in a mess. I didn't know what I was feeling. I didn't know what to feel. Soon, I collapsed.

GD's POV

She suddenly became quiet. I look at her. She was unconscious. I lifted her up and carried her to her bed. I laid her down with her blanket. I prepared a wet cloth and wiped her forehead and neck , hoping that it would help her to regain consciousness soon.

While doing that, tears started rolling down my cheeks. I thought to my self: What have I become? What an I doing? I'm becoming so dark and cold.

I wiped the tears away and looked at TaeSeon. I caused her all these misery... it was all my fault.

I looked towards the floor and let my tears flow.

"Oppa"

Taeseon's POV

I woke up and saw GD oppa beside me with tears flowing down his cheeks.

"Oppa" I called him.

He looked up and wiped away his years. I lifted myself and sat on the bed. Silence...

"Mianhe" GD whispered but loud enough my for me to hear.

He sat beside me. I looked at him without a word. I looked into his eyes and I could see his sincerity. I hugged him tightly. He pulled me closer to him and embraced me. I could hear his heart beating. It's wasn't a stone heart after all. I felt warmth. Soon, I fell asleep while leaning on his chest.

GD's POV

She fell asleep while I hugged her. I laid her back down and covered her with her blanket. I went to my room and spaced out.

Thoughts flowed into my mind.

What should I do now?

I feel like I'm hurting her. I am.

I want to stop, but I can't.

Why am I like this?

Am I scared? 

Overly protective?

Or am I just insane?

I wanted to scream my head off. But I knew that I would wake TaeSeon up. I'm so messed yo right now. How do I stop???