Time For A Change

Chapter Seven - Releasing The Pain

I smiled as I woke up to the feel of Ollie’s moist lips gently kissing me on the forehead, I looked up at him, my eyes widening as he smiled his breath-taking half smile before he pressed his lips against mine ever so lightly.

“Morning beautiful” he wrapped his arms around me tighter as I adjusted my head into the crook of his neck.

I yawned, placing one hand over my mouth; if I was with Jake I wouldn’t bother but I wasn’t so open around Ollie, I didn’t want him to think I was disgusting or rude. “Morning, what’s the time?” I groaned as the light blinded me.

“Seven, you need to start getting ready for school” he kissed my cheek before sitting up “but we have enough time for the last joint” he raised an eyebrow “unless you don’t want any?” he put it into his mouth and went to light it but before he could I pounced on top of him, straddling him as I took it out his mouth and placed it in mine.

“I’ll light it thank you very much” I smiled at him as he laid beneath me, shocked with what I had just done. I couldn’t help but giggle as I felt something hard gently press into my crotch making a small quiet moan escape from my lips. “Don’t look so shocked stud, you can’t beat everyone in a fight” I leant over to the side table picking up the lighter, making sure I slowly rubbed my body against his, feeling him get even harder.

He smirked as an evil smile formed onto his face, he wouldn’t would he? “I’ve never lost” before I could even move he began tickling my sides, I couldn’t control my laugher and my breath’s were coming out in rags as my speech came out muffled and slurred.

“Stop-tickling-me” I giggled in-between my words, a smile was planted right across his beautiful face. He carried on for a while but as soon as our eyes met, as soon as our eyes locked with one another’s he stopped. His deep down eyes were filled with happiness and joy, I smiled back and we were lost. I couldn’t help but let Jake creep into my mind though and I imagined myself getting lost into his beautiful deep, gorgeous brown eyes, how whenever I look into his eyes I don’t exist on the planet anymore, how I get lost in our own little world, how I thought we got lost in each other. I shook my thoughts away, no Jake made up his mind, he wanted to stay being the whore who sleeps around so Ollie was the next best thing and I knew that one day that maybe I could love Ollie like I love Jake because I knew that Ollie could make me happy, he does make me happy.

I know I haven’t know him that long, I know it has only been a few days but there was something about him, something that made me smile and laugh when he was around. Something that made me forget about loving Jake; most of the time anyway. Something that made me forget I had ever been hurt.

“What you thinking about?” Ollie broke my daze as he brushed some of my hair behind my ear which has fallen in front of my eyes.

I smiled, placing my lips against his. His mouth moved perfectly against mine, I could feel him smile against my lips as I muttered the word “This”. We were kissing for a while, Rolling around on the bed occasionally switching who was leaning over the other. The kissed seemed different to the usual lustful, desirable, hungry kisses we shared last night, these kisses felt more passionate, more meaningful. It was slow and not deep in the kissing sense, but deep that it touched my soul - I felt a connection. I didn’t know whether this was because I was gaining feelings for him or whether or not it was because I liked the feeling of someone wanting me but what ever it was, I didn’t want it to go away.

Placing the joint in my mouth, which had been in my hand that was located around his neck, I relit it asking Ollie to grab the bowl from the side which we had been using as an ash tray. Taking in the taste of the drug I had missed so much, Ollie adjusted his positioning so he was now behind me, wrapping his masculine arms around me. I laid my head back on his chest and smiled. The only thing that could make everything perfect would be if my best friend and I were okay but I knew now me and Ollie had did what we did, we wouldn’t be. I don’t understand why he scared me so much, why was he so angry? He was the one who slept with Charlie. I slept with Ollie after I realized I wasn’t what he wanted. Does that mean I wanted to be what he wanted? Course I did, I loved him.