Today I'm fucking tired of the closet.
Today I'm tired of the mothballs and the nasty ass old itchy sweaters and the stinky ass shoes and not being able to be with my girlfriend where anyone we know could see us.
I talked to her and she says it's okay.
Today, I'm coming out to my homophobic parents.
I'm terrified beyond belief and I have no idea how they're going to react, but I'm assuming I won't be on Wattpad for a while, if not ever.
At eight tonight I'm telling them.
I'm shaking.
This could be the end of the only family I have.
I love you all, and if anything goes wrong my account will be taken over by my amazing friend.
If anyone has any tips, ideas, advice, or help at all it would be appreciated.
I'm scared shitless, I've had three panic attacks already, and I have no clue what I'm doing.
So, to put it simply:
1. If this is my last post, I love you all
2. I'll be on Wattpad until 8, that's when I'm coming out
3. I need advice for dealing with it, even advice on the anxiety or personal experiences are good
4. My parents are homophobic Christians, don't get your hopes up
I'm praying they love me enough to be okay with who I am, but I'm not pretending anymore. This is a part of me I can't change, and one I'm very proud of. If they don't like that then I'll have to find a way to live without them.
Love you all, wish me luck for tonight.
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Wake Up, Get Paid, Get Laid, Gatorade
FanfictionA combination of a journal, a tag book, a rant book, and a place I put all my random bullshit. I'm really emo btw bye. This is the cringiest shit ever I'm so sorry.
