My world changed forever when I was four years old. The knowledge that I held so dear, lost in the blink of an eye. For me, those terms are literal. My knowledge lost and my innocence shattered in one mere event.
An aneurysm ruptured on the back of my optic nerve, located in the frontal portion of the skull. It rushed outward, leaving behind a bloody pulp of eye, instead of rushing backward as was normal, and causing my death. Excruciating pain and blindness, and nothingness. I couldn't remember a thing of it occurring. But awaking later with the knowledge that my connection to the cosmos, the very breathe of my existence and soul, was severed. The memories remained, but the ability to access them were withdrawn.
I now had to question everything, because nothing was longer certain within my confines. Nothing except those things that I had already learned while living in this life.
A contraindication if I had ever heard one. I lost my innocence when I lost my knowledge. Before, I knew what to believe in and I knew why. Now, I just questioned everything. And I still searched for those connections around me.
© 2013, Aelfwynn MacGregor
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