I miss you.
And emptiness is the only truth I know.
And loneliness is my true companion.
The cravings I feel for you are so much.
The person I used to be.
Is the only thing I regret.
Leaving.
I am a different being.
A changed soul.
Something bloomed anew in me.
And now I can no longer find you.
Under the years of denial and hope.
You happened.
You were real.
But I am not.
Suicide used to sound like music to my ears.
Now it is foreign, casual.
The times I recount seem like they were just yesterday.
But they were not.
One year, two years.
The person I used to be.
Locked in the hospital I left two years ago.
I have yet to return.
But I can only wonder.
If I were to walk back through those glass doors.
Would you come back to me?
Do you miss me?
Do you remember me?
Or have you consumed a new being?
Have you learned new things?
Have you seen different people?
I am not real.
Without you.
But you are.
A being somehow on its own.
Yet only a thought.
Is more real than.
A breathing human.
A soulless suicide.
I am not real.
But you were.
YOU ARE READING
i am not real , but you were
Poetrya collection of thoughts i refused to let slip away with the wind