❝Please remind me why I still haven't got rid of you?❞
❝You like me too much.❞
in which childhood friends like to pretend they know everything about each other, but things go down the drain and they need to work on it before they go insane... (expec...
No, this is not a update, and I am really sorry for that. I guess I say sorry more than I really write in this book, tbvh. Anyway, this is not why I am here. Three weeks ago, I think, I told you guys that my break from school was close and I was going to be here a lot; well, my school starts again in three days, I wrote nothing, and didn't get to do 1/4 of what I wanted. I have this really bad habit of always procastinating as long as possible because I forget things way too easily and end up doing nothing, like now.
So, I made a decision, based on the sake of this book and my own freaking mind. I'm putting Wasted Youth on a temporary hiatus. Let me explain why:
》a few years ago, I went through a really bad time in my life, and without getting too deep, I did things that I really regret. I never had a really good self-esteem and it only got worse when I was – and still am – growing up. But I got better last year. I was depressed for two whole years, but I got better. The thing is, lately I've been sinking deeper and deeper on old habits, and I hate myself for this. I started to feel forced to write something for this book, and I can't do anything right when I'm forced to. I write as a hobbie, and lately I just can't feel the pleasure I felt before while writing. So, being the perfectionist I am, I decided that I should take a break. So, when I come back, this book will have real good chapters, not shitty ones that I wrote in half an hour just because I had to. I don't work like this. 《
》If you guys see me being active here on wattpad, like reading things and stuff, please don't think I'm being a bitch because I'm not writing. I really do enjoy reading as much as I enjoy writing, but lately like I said, writing is turning into a forced thing to me. I made a promise to myself when I posted this book that I was going to finish this, and I am. But right now, I can't even put up with myself, and I don't want my dark mood affecting this book. Besides, I failed 6 classes last semester because I was focusing in other things instead of studying, and I don't know how my mom didn't rip my head off yet. To prevent that from happening again, it's one of the reasons why I'm putting this on a hiatus.《
I hope you guys understand my reasons. I don't know when I'll come back, I honestly don't. Maybe once in a while I'll show up here with a new chapter if I feel inspired. But right now, I don't have an answer. I usually don't – tbh never – open up about how I feel, so writing this was a really hard thing for me, but you guys deserve a reason. I'm sorry for everything, and I hope that when I come back, I still have everyone. ♡
♢ I'm writing this on my phone, and I feel extremely tired, so if I did any typos, please let me know.
♢ That's it for now. I love you guys, thank you for everything. I'll leave my social media here if you guys want to talk, or just PM me here. See y'all as soon as possible. ♡
AND, of course, thank you SO MUCH for every read, every comment and every favorite. I honestly can't express how much this means to me.
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