lost and found || hvc

XIII aftermath

"I can't believe Wonwoo would do that," Alex said while she paced all around our room in an agitated manner. "He never stroke me as that kind of a guy."
"Well you're not the only one," I said while I sat on the bed listening to her rant half-heartedly. I had had the whole night (most of it spent awake going between "I guess I wasn't good enough" and "he had a reason-- she was probably the love of his life", so basically self-loathing and then giving myself reasons why I shouldn't) and the school day (thankfully no biology on Wednesdays) to work it all through in my head, and the long bath I had taken in the morning had made me feel quite alright. I was feeling surprisingly okay: I didn't know if it was because I almost understood why it all happened or because I just didn't care enough. The last option made me feel conflicted, as in a way it made me feel better about myself (independent woman don't need no man etc. etc, which I liked to believe I stood by) but in a way made me question everything I had with Wonwoo: were my feelings really ever real? Or maybe they just weren't what I thought they were. Alex on the other hand had just found out after I told her everything (it's not like I could keep something like that from her anyway) and she was having a moment.
"You don't deserve this shitty treatment," Alex said and came close to my face and grabbed my cheeks, like she was trying to shake some sense into me. Ha. "His loss."
"But at least it wasn't a random girl," I said after Alex continued pacing while murmuring either bad things about Wonwoo or good things about me. It was kind of hard to tell sometimes. Right now I just wanted her to calm down over the whole thing.
"It was Angie," she said, repeating her name slowly a few times. "She's the only reason I'm not currently smacking the shit out of Wonwoo."
"The whole thing definitely is something," I said. "When you really think about it, it's kind of amazing how they got to meet each other again."
Alex grunted something incoherent before she sat next to me on the bed.
"To be honest, I never really felt like Wonwoo was the guy for you," she said and shrugged her shoulders. "There is someone better for you out there. Someone you'll have the real spark with."
"Hope so," I said and gave out a dry laugh.
"No hope needed," Alex said, kind of like she knew something I didn't. "I know there is."

"For now, let's just go eat."

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We decided on the same restaurant we had already been to a couple of weeks ago, the bbq place just around the corner from the dorms. When we walked in we looked around to try and find a table for ourselves (this time there was no one to assist us), and Alex's face lit up.

"Hey, look who it is!" she said and pointed towards two boys sitting at a table, which of one was clearly Joshua. The other boy was sitting with his back towards us, but without even seeing his face I knew who it was.

"Now I understand why you insisted on us coming here," I said and rolled my eyes.
"I don't know what you're talking about," Alex answered while looking towards the boys. Yeah right, I thought: Joshua and Alex texted all the time and it was impossible that Alex didn't know he was here. Or who he was with.

"Hi guys," Alex said. "Mind if we join you?"

"Not at all," Joshua said and scooted over to make space for Alex.
"Hi Joshua," I said and gave him a nod. Then I slowly turned my head towards the other side of the table (where I apparently was going to sit) towards the person already sitting there.
"Hi Hansol."
"Hi, Jess," Hansol said and patted the seat next to him. "Have a seat."

While Alex and Joshua were deep in conversation about something to do with Alex's parents, Hansol and I were both awkwardly quiet.

"Did you get the chance to listen to those songs I told you about?" he asked then after clearly hesitating for a while.
"Actually I did," I said. I listened to them while in the bath, and they were actually really good. Hansol really did know his music.
"Did you like them?" he said excitement in his words. Like he actually cared about what I had to say.
"Yep, not bad," I said and nodded my head approvingly. He looked at my face to see if I was being honest, and when he decided that I was he smiled proudly.
"What can I say, I know my shit," he then said, clearly getting cocky.
"Oh don't get so high up on that horse," I said and rolled my eyes. "Just a few songs."
"Good songs," he replied, not allowing me to break his bubble. Well, let him be proud.

"The Weeknd or PARTYNEXTDOOR?" Hansol asked me, as we were currently playing "which one you like better."
"PARTYNEXTDOOR," I answered quickly. "I'm in love."
"Majid Jordan or Frank Ocean?" he then followed.
"Frank Ocean," I replied after short hesitation. "How about you?"
"The same," he answered nodding approvingly at my choices. "Your taste is better than I thought."

"I know," I answered, smiling playfully. It was weird how nice it was talking with him, although for some reason I also felt a bit nervous. But it was Hansol, and everything in me tensed slightly whenever I saw him. Just his presence was enough for my skin to tingle, and I didn't know how I felt about that. I didn't know if it was good or bad: was it a warning or an invitation.

"Sorry to disturb you, but I have a lot of homework to do," Alex said, looking at us expectantly. "So we'll get going. You can stay if you want, though."
"No, it's okay," I said, realising how close me and Hansol were sitting while caught up in our conversation. I moved a bit further, and he cleared his throat. Needless to say, it was a bit awkward. "I'll come with you."

We walked out of the restaurant and down the road until we had to split paths. Joshua and Alex did their thing, and me and Hansol were left there standing. Typical.
"See you around?" he asked, a small grin on his face.
"Most likely, yes," I replied. It wasn't like Alex or the universe was going to not let that happen.
"Bye then, lost girl."
"Bye Hansol."

// A.N

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