Part II.
Ken and I are sitting together at the front porch of the private mansion, both staring at the starless sky. The others are currently speaking due to the long ride and we also visited the Wayland Research Laboratories, the lab that is owned by my parents.
I felt Ken's hands in my hair, caressing it slowly, "Aren't you sleepy?" he whispered at my ear, his face in the side of my neck.
"Nope. And, you love touching my hair this past few weeks, huh? Does white hair fits me?" I asked sarcastically and his shoulders moved showing that he is currenly laughing.
Napairap ako at hinampas siya ng marahan sa hita, "Oo, bagay sayo puti. Pang-matanda." Marahan niyang sabi at tumawa na ng tuluyan.
Umirap ako at hinampas na siya ng malakas. "Bastard, mas matanda ka kaya sa'kin!" I spat out but then he just continued laughing even if I'm slapping his legs.
His laugh slowly faded out and then I heard him sighed, "I am so proud of you." He suddenly whispered at my ears, I felt shivers down my spine as his voice covered my ears.
"Madelline still died, though."
"And so? She's probably happy she's with her twin now."
Hindi ako sumagot.
Is she? Is Madelline happy? I don't know. I don't know if ending the war is enough.
Before, I thought that ending the war would make me feel happy, would erase away all the guilt but now? All I could think of is still about how many lives were taken because of me. I am still thinking if what I did was enough.
Is it?
Is it enough?
I felt Ken's hands in my cheeks, "Hmm, penny for your thoughts?" He whispered.
"It's nothing, Ken." I whispered back and snuggled closer to him.
It was midnight when Ken left me to sleep. He wants me to come with him but I refused because I need to think about everything again.
Oh of course, everything is fine. For them. I am currently in the middle of identity crisis.
Oh damn.
Not that kind of identity crisis. I am a female, thank you very much. I am just wondering who I really am now. I mean, I have powers surpassing the demons' powers! I have powers that matched the Angels!
But still, I am a vampire.
What does that make me? A fucking vampire with the powers of angels and demons? That sounds fucked up.
"Alexa."
"Fuck!"
Napamura ako sa gulat noong biglang may tumawag sa'kin. Nilingon ko ito at nakita si Azrael na naka-tayo. He's wearing a formal suit and he looks so clean and happy, unlike on the war.
He seems like a real angel.
Oh damn. He is a real angel, Alexa!
Tinakbo ko ang distansya namin ni Azrael at niyakap ko siya, "I was so damn worried, Azrael!" I exclaimed as I hugged him tight.
Azrael chuckled and hugged me, too, "I know. Palagi ko kayong pinanonood mula sa langit." Sagot niya at humiwalay na sa'kin habang naka-ngiti.
We sat at the front porch where Ken and I cuddled about an hour ago.
"What happened to you?" I unbelievably asked him as I stared at him.
He smiled widely, "Heaven accepted me back. I am now a servant of God, again. And being an Angel again means I need to stay in heaven and can't come here often just like before." He happily told me.
I smiled, "That's good news, Azrael. Just don't break our communication, okay? We'll miss you. Dapat ay sabihin mo din yan sa iba kundi ay mapapatay ka ni Thean, Van, Ken at Cody." I adviced and saw Azrael laughed before nodding.
"Of course! Baka punuin nila ako ng mura! Naririnig ko mga dasal niyo, natatawa na lang ako." Sabi niya habang natawa at mukhang masaya.
I wish I could be happy as him.
No problems anymore.
Just like when we were young. No problems and complications. Just us, playing, laughing.
But now?
I changed.
My physical features changed. All the part of me changed because of my stupid decisions.
"But, I'm not here to talk to you. I'm here because someone wants to talk to you. Grabeng pagmamaka-awa pa ang ginawa niya kay Papa God para lang maka-usap ka." Natatawa-tawang sabi ni Azrael.
My forehead knotted, "Who?"
"Ate Alexa!"
I stood up and stared at the kid who is waving happily at me. He's wearing an all-white outfit and his smile was the brightest amongst all. I felt the sides of my eyes burned hot as I stared at him.
Until my tears can't stop falling.
"Adam." I whispered as I tried to wipe the falling tears in my eyes.
Adam ran and hugged me while smiling, "Na-miss po kita, Ate!" He happily said but I just continued crying and hugged him.
"Adam. Adam. Adam." I repeatedly whispered as I cry.
I felt Adam's hands in my cheeks and he wiped the tears while crying, "Don't cry, Ate Alexa." He mumbled in my ears but my tears kept coming and I couldn't stop it.
I missed Adam so much. I am so sorry that he died. I want to say sorry until the guilt wash away. I want to say thank you for everything.
When I calmed down, Adam started telling me everything happened to him. He was six when he found out about his abilities, he said that it took years to control it that's why Adam and his twin practiced real hard in the orphanage until Adam got adopted.
"I know someone is hunting us that's why I made myself a bait to save Madelline from them. They can hurt me, Ate Alexa but I don't want them to hurt my sister. She was the only family I got."
Sa mga sinasabi ni Adam ay mas lalo lang akong nanliliit sa sarili ko. I felt so damn pathetic because I created a war just because I was envious of the attention my brothers got from my parents while Adam lure himself to save his sister.
What a damn heroic act.
Matagal kaming nag-kwentuhan ni Adam hanggang sa sinabi niya na oras na daw niya para umalis. Hindi daw siya pwede mag-tagal sa lupa.
I smiled sadly, "I miss you so much, Adam." I mumbled as I hug him for one last time.
"Ako din Ate Alexa, but, before I leave, could you make another promise?" He asked while smiling.
I shook my head slowly, I don't think I could handle another promise. I fail to do everything I've promised before. Hindi ko na ata kakayanin kung mamatay ako dahil sa nakokonsensya ako sa hindi ko nagawang pangako.
"Don't worry, you can do it." Adam encouragingly said as I nodded my head slowly.
"Close your eyes, Ate." He whispered and I closed my eyes slowly and I felt Adam's small hands in my cheeks and then I heard a tiny whisper in my ear.
"Promise me you'll use your powers nicely." He whispered.
When I opened my eyes, Adam is already gone.
Don't worry Adam, I will.
And this time, I won't fail you.
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Note: Sorry po if natagalan sa pag-update. I'm quite busy. Although, don't you all worry, I'm still trying to accomplish my goal na by the end of this month matapos to. I'll try to update on Friday so please keep waiting :)
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