THE WORDS OF MY SILENCE [poems]

BEING KIND HURTS

It’s good you want
It’s kind you need
But when around
You don’t recognise.
You Insult rather appreciate
Yet I try to be good,
Understanding your bad mood.
It's always confusing That How kindness
is Misunderstood for weakness
I bear the harsh words
So that you can feel at ease.
I'll always be that person
On whom you can rely on.
But I never get the appreciation,
I'm always taken for granted.
You don’t care about me.
I'm just something that stays with you
to do every thing you want to.
You  go behind those who treat you rough.
When you’re totally broken
You search for me again
My heartbreak doesn’t matter for you
All that important is how you feel.
Yet I don’t complain.
I hold back my pain,
To help ease yours.
I'll be there whenever I'm needed
At the end I'm not at least thanked.
It’s always someone else.
I never complain,
I accept whatever you bring.
I smile and praise that small prize.
May be that's why I always get the little.
Even when thoughts like this surrounds me,
I feel like it’s a sin,
And so I scold myself  and smile again
Hoping one day you'll see,
All my happiness I left behind,
It’s sure you need people like me
But your actions torture me
Though I act strong, I'm not.
My heart aches just like yours.
A smile on my face doesn’t mean i’m not hurt,
I hide it deep down inside,and put up a smile.
There's even no need for your apology
I forgive you even when you are not sorry.
Hope you’ll understand this one day
And stop hurting me again and again.
Come on it’s enough
It’s hurting
Really it’s hurting so much.
Now please stop it..

I can’t speak these though,,,,,

Yeh! Here i come for you
Again and again…

- Laxmi Bhargavi Golla