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Chapter 25- Looks who's home

School ended faster then I though it would. Amanda is still pretty pissed at me, but it's her fault. She started it and I'll end it. It's not my problem if it hurts her reputation, her life, or her in general. She wanted to play, then I'll play. I won't sit around and cry from all this pain she's caused me. I will repay her with the same pain, she deserves it.

Why don't you just forgive her instead? You don't know why she's hurting. What you did was cruel. You might be leaving soon, why can't you just make peace to her? Forgive her and forget the past, leave it all behind. All that matters is the present and the future.

My mother's voice made me freeze. Normally, I would make myself believe it's just my brain speaking, but not in this case. I could feel her presence even if she's not here. Her words were perfectly clear in my ears. Her voice was angelic and soft. It's then I realised how much I really did miss them. My parents. My dear parents. Don't cry Nichole, they wouldn't want you to cry. I thought to myself.

They had always been there for me even when I was rebellious and disrespectful. They always listened to my problems. They always gave me what I wanted. They always said they cared. They never left my side. They always loved me.

I, I treated them like shit. I treated my own parents like shit. I never listened to their problems. I never gave them what they wanted. I never told them I cared. I was never by their side. I never told them I loved them. I always told them I hated them and that I never cared for them. But looking back I realise they did care and love me. I was their everything. I was they world. I was their's. I acted like a bitch, a selfish obnoxious hypocritical disrespectful bitch. How and why did they put up with me? Most parents would've given up and not done something about it, but my parents they did. They did something, they showered with me with love and care. They gave me attention, they cancelled a couple of meetings to spend time with me. They did a lot just for me, and how did I repay them. By acting like a bitch.

I feel that if I forgive all the people that have hurt me, including my adoptive parents, that I'm repaying my parents in a way. I feel if I forgive them they'll forgive me. All of the sudden all the hatred in my body disappeared. I felt that if I hated them, I would be hating my parents too.

My parents raised me better than this. They told me 'each head is a world' meaning we all think differently. They would've expected me to forgive and forget. They would've wanted me to move on so I could live a good life without hatred and evil.

I will forgive every person that has ever hurt me physically or emotionally. I will forgive my adoptive parents, Amanda, Brayden, and the whole school. I will do this for mine and my parents sakes. I will forgive and forget. I will move on.

"Nichole?!"

"Nichole?!"

"Nichole?!"

"Nichole?!"

I realise someone is calling my name and I snap out. I look at the person calling me.

"What?" I ask.

"You've been standing there staring in space for a long time now." Ryder says.

"I was thinking." I say.

"About?"

"Forgiveness." I say.

He looks at me confused.

"I'll explain some other time, right now I need to find Amanda. Where is she?" I ask.

"In the gym." He responds. I turn around only to bump into my locker door.

"Shit." I curse as the locker door closed shut.

"Babe are you okay?" Ryder asks.

"I'm fine. Just a little bump no biggie." I say rubbing my forehead.