bts imagines

everything (namjoon & seokjin)

2 years ago
you had just arrived at your classroom when you noticed a pink envelope left on your table. you picked it up and saw that it was from seokjin, addressed to you. putting down your bag, you opened it up. there was a letter and you read it to yourself:

to. (y/n)
annyeong, (y/n)-ah. it's me, seokjin. you may be wondering why i'm writing a letter to you all of a sudden, but no matter how i think about it, it's the most sincere way to express my feelings.
by the time you're reading this, i'm already on board the plane on the way to america. i'm going there to study for a few years and believe me or not, i really didn't want to go because i don't want to leave you all alone. but i have no choice, my parents forced me into this.
also, i'm really sorry for having to tell you this through a letter, but... let's break up. it's not that i've stopped loving you already, but i don't know when i'll be coming back, or if i even will come back. i don't want you to wait endlessly for me and waste your time on something you don't even know when will happen.
i'm sorry and i love you.
from. seokjin

you broke into tears the moment you read the whole letter. how could he just leave so suddenly like this? and more importantly, why did he want to break up with you? you didn't mind at all having to wait for him to come back. running out of the classroom, you headed towards the toilet to have your own space. on the way, you bumped into something hard. you looked up and realised that it was namjoon, one of your classmates and also seokjin's best friend. you assumed that he already knew about what had happened when he hugged you and patted your back.

"let all your tears out and cry all you want, (y/n)." he comforted you.

after a good 10 minutes, your tears finally dried up. namjoon looked at you and smiled softly. in that instant, you felt warm internally because you knew there was someone there to look out for you.

now
"oh (y/n)-ah!" namjoon called out to you as he waved his hand.

you waved back as you walked up to where he was. it was currently the school holidays and you had decided to ask namjoon to go to the library to do homework together with you. after all, he was better in academics than you so you could seek his help easily.

the two of you found a seat in a quiet corner and sat down. opening up your exercise book, you began solving some maths equation and formulas. after almost an hour, you began to feel cold as you forgot to bring your jacket and rubbed your palms together constantly. namjoon noticed this and removed his jacket to place it over your shoulders.

"thanks." you smiled and said softly before continuing on with your work.

after about another hour, your stomach began to rumble a little. you checked your watch and noticed that it was already time for lunch.

"want to go grab a bite?" namjoon chuckled slightly before asking.

"sure."

after buying food, you immediately began to dig in. as you almost finished eating, a thought suddenly struck your mind. you slowly placed your utensils down and wiped your mouth.

"seokjin... how is he doing?"

today marked exactly two years since seokjin left. although namjoon was your current boyfriend ever since he was there by your side for you, you couldn't help but think of seokjin from time to time. you felt sorry towards namjoon since you could tell that he was making efforts to help you forget about seokjin. however, he didn't mind it at all as he understood that it wasn't easy to forget someone completely within such a short time.

"he... he's doing fine. we were on the phone yesterday and he told me that he's coping well with the subjects there and made lots of new friends too." namjoon replied with his head down focused on his food.

after finishing lunch, you headed back to the library and stayed there until it was finally time to go home. at the bus stop, you were about to bid farewell to namjoon and head home when he suddenly caught you by the wrist.

"i... i... there's something that i have to tell you." he sounded extremely nervous.

"hmm? what is it?"

"i've been lying to you all this while. seokjin hyung, he..."

"what about him? is there something wrong?"

"he isn't doing well at all. in fact, he had been suffering all along."

"why? what do you mean?"

namjoon continued holding onto your hand as he brought you somewhere. you were kind of confused and worried at the same time as he wasn't being himself, ever since you asked him about seokjin. finally, you arrived somewhere that wasn't unfamiliar to you at all. in fact, it was where you and seokjin often went to — the park near his house.

"why are we here?"

namjoon remained silent as he went near a tree and began digging into the ground. after a few minutes, he picked up a box tied with a ribbon and handed it over to you.

"go on, open it."

you opened it up and found several items from the many memories you created with seokjin — a key chain from the dog funfair, a polaroid taken at the amusement park, a short you gifted him on his birthday and many more.

"but... why are all these here? and... why are you giving it to me?"

namjoon took out his phone and played something for you. it was two voice recordings.

"june 16, 2014.
namjoon-ah, it's me, seokjin. i'm leaving for america very soon and in fact, i'm already at the airport checking in. the reason why i'm going there is... for treatment. yes, i'm sick. not long ago, i found out that i had liver cancer after i visited the doctor telling them that i was constantly losing weight unintentionally and feeling weak all the time. they told me that i could only survive for about another 2 years at most but still advised me to go to america for treatment so here i am. i have something to request you though... don't tell (y/n) about this. i already lied to her that i'm going to study. instead, help me take good care of her. help me make her forget about me. i'm really sorry but thank you for being my good friend too."

"may 7, 2016.
hello. is this kim namjoon? we're calling from xxxxx hospital. we were instructed by mr kim seokjin to specifically call you, and only you. as of 4.37pm just now, he has passed away. he told us to call you to tell you about this matter and also to remind you not to tell miss (y/n). those were his last words. my deepest condolences."

upon realising the truth, you were left speechless. you squatted down as you buried your head and cried your heart out. although it was wrong of seokjin to lie to you, you just couldn't bring yourself to hate him, since he was just doing whatever he could to protect you for as long as possible.

"seokjin... he... meant everything to me... now that everything is gone... how am i... how am i supposed to carry on?"

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