Unexpected - A Dan Howell series

Unexpected - Part 16

Dan's POV

It's been a few hours since I first got to the hospital, I remained in the same position, Keeping my hand in hers. I was so glad she was going to be okay, you have no idea. I don't know what I would have done if something had of happened to either her or the baby, I didn't even know if it was a boy or a girl. I didn't even know if Phil knew. I never thought to ask. I stroked her hand for a while with my thumb, just really taking in the moment when my phone buzzed, it was about 2 am now so I wasn't sure why. fumbled about for a bit in my pocket before managing to pull it out. I sit up and noticed that Phil messaged me. "Hey I'm out the front". I put the phone back into my pocket and then got up from my seat quietly, trying not to disturb (Y/n), even though she was sedated.

I walked out into the front and saw Phil standing there with two coffee's in his hand. I walked up to him and engulfed him in a hug. Phil carefully placed the coffee's down on the receptionist's desk and wrapped his arms around me.

"Are you alright Dan? I only brought coffee?"

"Thank you Phil. Thank you so much. Not just for the coffee, but the doctor told me that you said you caught her. He said that if you didn't she could have harmed the baby. I'm just, you don't know how grateful I am in this moment that they're both okay"

Phil patted my back and just hugged me for a while before pulling away to look at me.

"Is she alright? is she awake yet?"

"She's fine, but she's not awake, she passed out from exhaustion so the doctors have her sedated so she can recover her strength. She'll be okay, but the doctor said she's on bed rest until the baby comes. The thing is, I don't know if she's mad at me. I mean, I would be she treated me like I did her. I messed up big time, and all I wan't to do is fix it. I want to be apart of their lives Phil. It's my child, and, and.."

"And?"

"I just. I think I love her. I never really saw her like that because she was always just there, right in front of me you know? She was my best friend growing up, so I just never really saw her in that way. But I don't know, maybe sleeping with her those months ago was me trying to tell myself something. I tried to deny it, but then I lost her and her contact, making me miss her like crazy. I know it's super cliché and stupid, but I didn't know what I had until she was gone. And now I want her back more than anything. I wan't to try and pursue a family with her. I just. I don't even know if the baby is a boy or a girl yet, this is all just so real and confusing."

"It's a girl"

I stared at Phil. My eyes open wide. I was having a daughter? I didn't care that he knew and didn't say anything, I was just so happy. I was going to have a little girl to call my own, I bet she's going to come out looking just like her mother, Gorgeous.

"I'm having a daughter?!"

Phil nodded and then smiled at me. I picked him up in an enthusiastic hug. I was ecstatic. I picked up the coffee that was still on the desk and took a sip. I really felt like I was on cloud 9 right now. I just, I felt like I had to be near (Y/n) whilst I still felt like this. I thanked Phil for the coffee and told him I would be home some time tomorrow. We waved each other off and then I made my way back to her room, coffee in hand.

When I walked in, she was still asleep, but I didn't mind, I was glad to just be around really, it has been 6 months since I last spoke to her, I had a lot of time to make up for not being around. I sat down in my chair and just looked at her presence. My eyes traveled down to her now, large bump, with my beautiful baby inside. I noticed that her stomach was moving around. I stood up to look at it, I was a little confused, so I gently placed my hand over the movements. When I put my hand on there, I could feel little, but quite strong kicks coming from the baby. I practically just got all soft and melted inside. I pulled the chair closer, keeping my hand on the bump. My smile could not have been any bigger in that moment. In a hushed voice, I moved my fingers around her belly and started saying things to the little one.

"I can't believe I missed out on you for the last 8 months. I'm so sorry. not only to you, but to your mummy as well. I never meant for her to be on her own during this. Had she of told me, I would have stuck around. As young as we both are, we would have worked it out. But right now, all that matters is that I'm here for you little one. for you and your mum. And I promise to you both right now, that I'm not going anywhere. Because I love you."

I finished saying what I needed to, I really go it off my chest. I moved my hand around when a hand appeared on top of mine. I quickly glanced over at her. She looked very tired, and her eyes didn't look like they normally did, but she was here. I smiled at her, placed my other hand on top of hers.

"Hey there."

"Hey you."