Unexpected - A Dan Howell series

Unexpected - Part 6

I sat there against the wall in my bathroom. The light, flickering as if it were about to die. Honestly, I felt like I could do that myself. My eyes were so sore and puffy from all the crying I had done, It started to burn and I could hardly even see because every time i would blink, tears would just keep forming. The tears kept rushing past my face as if it were Niagara falls, it was just never ending. I sniffled between sobs, consistently trying to wipe my eyes, my jumper sleeves were completely soaked, and they were reaching a point where it wasn't going to continue soaking up all the moisture. I brought my knees up to my chest and began to sob louder, I knew no one was home, so i could be as loud as i wanted. How did this happen. Why did this have to happen to me. Oh god, What am i going to say to Dan, I can't just keep this from him.

I stared down at the positive pregnancy test that i had previously tossed to the floor, Just zoning out so i could try and control my breathing. I-I was pregnant. I have a baby growing inside me. I'm only young. Too young to be a mother. But I couldn't get rid of it. I just couldn't allow myself. I'd never forgive myself if i did. After hours of crying, screaming and anything else I did, I finally manage to pull myself up from the bathroom floor. I walk out into the living room and look out the window, I didn't realise how late it had actually gotten, maybe i should go to bed soon. I go over to the kitchen, fix myself up something quick to eat and by the time i finish its actually around midnight, it really was late. I didn't really have the energy to stay up tonight so I made my way over to my room and slipped into bed. When i get into bed i end up just staring at the ceiling, my mind is full of thoughts, mainly about what I should do, because I know I'm under a time crunch when it comes to telling Dan. I just really hope that he doesn't leave..

My eyes start to flutter open as i begin to feel the warmth of sunlight which was streaming in from the window. It's morning, I must have fallen asleep. I get out of bed and grab my phone, noticing that I have messages from a few people, Dan included. I respond to everyone but Dan, I can't talk to him at the moment because i need to figure out what to do first. I search the internet through my phone for a number and then begin to punch it in, holding the ear up to my phone

*ring, ring* "Hello, this is the office of Dr.Price, OBGYN, How may I help you this morning?"

 "Uh Hi, my name is (y/n, Y/l/n)" I say, stuttering into the phone "I was wondering if it were possible to Make an appointment with Dr.Price as soon as possible?".

 There was a pause, I felt so incredibly insecure at the moment, the tension was just killing me.

  "Yes, absolutely, the soonest i can get you in for is next Thursday at 2:30 pm, is that okay with you miss (y/l/n)?". 

This was the soonest I could get in?, fuck my life.

"Yes that's fine, thank you and I will see you then, Goodbye" After you said that you pulled the phone away from your ear and end the call, "Shit!."

After I made the appointment, I head to the kitchen to make myself some breakfast. I wasn't all that hungry, but because i was eating for two now, i knew i had to do the right thing by it. I opened the refrigerator and stared into its contents. I hummed and haah'd for about 5 minutes before I decided to just make a fruit salad. It was healthy and i knew it would do me some good, considering lately all I had done was order take-out and binge on chips. Fruit by fruit, I cut them up into little chucks and placed them in the bowl, All the colours looking quite beautiful. I sat down at the sofa and turned on the TV, and I don't know why today of all days, but I swear i have never seen more commercials related to baby products today than any other. I scoffed and turned off the TV, I really just didn't have it in me to put up with all this today, I was already feeling terrible. I finished my breakfast and then decided to take a nap on the sofa, I didn't sleep well, so this would probably do me some good, but just as i was about to doze off into a sleep, I heard the front door swing right open. 

"(Y/n)?"

 I sighed, it was Dan. Why. Why was it Dan. I sat up and waited for him to come into the living room and when he came in i just looked up at him. 

"Were you asleep?"

"Well i was trying to Dan, I didn't sleep much lastnight"

 "Oh are you okay, What's wrong?"

 I paused for a moment at that point, I knew he had to know, but I can't bring myself to say anything at the moment. I exhaled and looked away from him, lying back down on the sofa 

"nothing's wrong Dan i just couldn't sleep".

 "Oh, well do you mind if I hang out here today? Phil needed the apartment" 

I didn't respond but i just shrugged and closed my eyes. I knew i was being cold but i honestly Have no idea what to do, My mind is panicking at the moment and it's making me feel so ill. I pretended to ignore Dan as he lifted my legs so he could sit on the sofa, but I just felt so uncomfortable around him, like the guilt was just eating away at me. I sat up and looked at him 

"I'm just gonna go lie down in bed, help yourself"

 I didn't look at his reaction, I simply got up and walked to my room. I closed the door as I entered my room and got into bed. I lay there on my side, and eventually just curled up into the fetal position worrying about what would happen until i eventually just fell asleep.