Unexpected - A Dan Howell series

Unexpected - Part 4

It's been three days since I've heard from Dan. I feel like he isn't going to talk to me anytime soon, I feel like it's my fault, I don't even remember who made the first move. I sigh as i look over to my alarm clock, it reading 11:30 am. I don't think i could be bothered to get out of bed today, I'm just not emotionally all there. I stare up at the ceiling for hours, Just watching as the day goes by. By the time i decide to get up, it's 8 pm. I walk into my bathroom and start the shower, strip myself of my clothes and proceed to get in, the warm water instantly rushing over my face. Normally in the shower I can't help but listen to music or sing, or something, but this Dan thing just has me feeling all over the place, I don't know how to fix it, or us. I stand in the shower for a further fifteen minutes, just letting the water run over my bare body, filling my skin with warmth.

I get out, and reach for my towel, it feels so fluffy, It was always the best part about getting out. I throw on an over-sized jumper and some sweatpants, my mood has been too down to care about my appearance, so i threw my damp hair in a bun and called it a day. As i walked out to the living room, there was a knock on the front door, in all honesty i hoped for it to be anyone other than Dan, I wasn't in a mood to talk to him. I opened the door and there he was, standing in the doorway. He stared at my complexion, the bags under my eyes from a lack of sleep, my wet hair in a bun, the baggy clothes, Dan always knew something was wrong when i was like this.

Dan sighed "(Y/n), we need to talk about what happened"

"Dan you always choose the worst time to want to talk about things, I'm really not in the mood right now, I'm tired, I'm hungry and i just want to be alone, especially after the way you yelled at me the other day, because what the fuck was that?"

"I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't have yelled at you, It wasn't anyone's fault, we were both drunk and it just happened, I don't want to lose my friendship to you over this, you've always been there for me (Y/n) and I'd hate to lose you, because you're one of the closest people to me"

I contemplated his apology for a few seconds, Dan seemed sincere, so It's probably best to accept it, I don't want to lose him, I'd be a mess. I opened my arms and hugged him, his arms wrapping around my back. I missed this, Dan always gave the best hugs, I really just wish i could stay here forever.

Dan let go and looked down at me

"So if we're okay, would you like to go out for lunch tomorrow, consider it the real apology, I'll even take you to your favorite place?"

"I'd like that a lot Dan, Thank you"

He smiled and looked out into the street

"Okay, well, I'll swing by here around 11 am tomorrow and we'll head out "

I smiled back at him "Okay, I'll see you then". 

I closed the door after that. Maybe things were looking up, Maybe things could just go back to normal, Even though I liked Dan, I would rather keep a friendship, than pursue something more and lose him forever.