Unexpected - A Dan Howell series

Unexpected - Part 12

Dan's POV

Since the day Phil told me about (y/n) I've done nothing but try to find out where she was. I can't believe she didn't tell me. It's such an important thing not to say to someone. I was really confused about this whole situation. (Y/n) was having a baby, And it was more than likely mine, because she would have told me if she was sleeping with anyone else at the time. We were best friends, we told each other everything. Well, we used to. Although every time she told me she had a date or was seeing something, I always felt something, I didn't consider it to be anything, I'd never felt like that for her before. But now I just miss her, more than I thought I would. Could there have been the possibility of me liking (Y/n) without really knowing it? I mean yeah, I've never really known what I wanted, but I know now that I can't lose her.

I was setting up my camera to shoot something. I figured it was really the last thing I could do, considering I didn't know where (Y/n) was or where she even lived anymore. I sat down and mentally began to prepare myself when my phone rang. It was Chris.

"Hey Chris, what's going on?"

"Dan I just saw her"

"Who?"

"(Y/n), Did you know she's pregnant??

I sighed "Yeah I found out about 2 weeks ago, Where is she??"

"Well last time I saw her, she was at that massive baby store near the park and the street of cafe's and stuff, OH, and I also got her number if you want it?"

"Yes, Oh Chris, thank you so much!"

He gave me the number and the street name, I hoped that she would still be there when I got there. I really, really needed to see her, But by some sick, twisted sense of fate, just as I got there, She closed the door on the cab and It drove away. Why. Why is life like this. Even though I only got to see her for a second I did notice her bump, she looked gorgeous, and was glowing. Wait. gorgeous? but she was, I couldn't deny it.

I trudged my way home, disappointed that I didn't get to her in time. Because I walked rather than taking a taxi back it was rather later than I expected, but I did also stop for a coffee, so... I got home and threw my coat up, Phil saw that I looked disappointed and sat me down

"Dan what's going, you've been a mess recently"

"Phil, I saw her. Only for a second, but I did see her today"

"(Y/n)?"

"Yeah, she must have been looking at baby stuff, Chris called me earlier and told me where she was, gave me her new number, but when I finally got there, she was getting into a taxi. I couldn't get to her in time"

"So why didn't you call her?"

I stared at him not realising that I could have just done that. I face palmed myself feeling like a complete idiot. "I could have called her. But the thing is Phil. I miss her like crazy, I never really knew how I felt about her until I seen her today, I need to find her, and talk to her about this whole situation"

Phil looked at me and gave me a quick hug "Well you did say that you had her number, so why not call her now?"

That was a good idea. I picked up my phone and went to my contacts, looking for her name. When I hit the call button I pressed the Phone up to my ear waiting, Just hoping that she would pick up. But she didn't. I waited 2 minutes and tried again, getting the same response. I sighed placing my phone down when Phil looked at me

"You're going to give up?"

"She's not there Phil"

"Keep trying"

So I did, time after time, ring after ring, until she finally picked up, but she talked as soon as she picked up the phone, not giving me time to say anything. She sounded rather irritated and stressed out.

"Look whoever this is, I don't know your number, whether you even have the right person or not is beyond me, but I don't know you, So I would appreciate It if you would just stop calling me"

I tried to say something, but she hung up. I slowly placed my phone into my pocket and then got up from the sofa, walking towards my room, where I just locked myself in. I sat on my bed and just stared at the ground. I noticed that my camera was still set up, So I figured while I was still feeling everything, now would be as good a time as ever to film.

"Hello Internet. This is kind of a personal video, not one that I do a lot, but this is really an important thing I have going on, and I really messed up, so I need to make this right. You see, I have a friend that I have known for a very long time. Next to Phil, she was my best friend from home. Recently something strange happened between us and I wasn't coping well with it, but when she started to distance herself from me, instead of talking to her about it, I completely shut her down and cut her out of my life. It's been months since I had seen her. Until today, I noticed her in the street, and it truly made me realise how much I missed and needed her in my life. (Y/n) If at any point you can see this, and I hope you do, this is really my last hope. I know, I know what's been going on with you, And I want and need to be apart of your life. You're everything to me and it's taken me til just now to figure that out. I'm so sorry that I cut you out, that I told you to leave me alone but it was a mistake, and one I'm going to regret for the rest of my life. I tried calling you multiple times tonight, but you told me to stop. Which is understandable. But please. Please let me know how you are. I miss you"

I wiped a tear from my eye, I didn't even realise that I was that upset. I turned the camera off and uploaded the video, I wanted it to be genuine, so I felt that editing it would have made it seem scripted. I posted it up on YouTube and then went to bed, lying there, just hoping that maybe she'll see it.