Unexpected - A Dan Howell series

Unexpected - Part 2

I sit on the edge of the bed, not really knowing how to feel at this point, but I motion Dan over so that I can talk to him about last night's events. He awkwardly shuffles over next to me with the Duvet still wrapped around him and sits down, honestly he probably feels as awkward as I do at this point. I sigh, mentally face-palming myself and look over to Dan who cut's me off before I can get a word in edge wise.

 "(Y/n) what happened, Why am i here, and naked? Honestly I'm just so confused right now." 

I take his hand in mine and tell my best friend everything that I can remember about last night, and as I go deeper into the story a look of horror just slowly appears over his face, but I weren't expecting his reaction at all, That's what tore me down the most.

"We didn't, we can't have, why would you allow me to do that?!, Fuck (Y/n) How could you have let this happen?"

Dan was starting to get really upset about this now and all his anger was just being dished out towards me. I always liked Dan, like, I really, really liked him, so as he Continued to just spit out things I could feel my heart just shatter inside. It was taking everything inside me not to cry at this moment. 

"Dan it's not like i intended this to happen, I was just as drunk as you were, This isn't all my fault you know" I blurted out with complete rage, I didn't know where it came from but I wasn't going to take from Dan.

At that moment he didn't say anything, he got up, paced the room for a bit, He looked like he was going to say something but he decided against it. I never thought my Best friend would treat me this way, we've been through thick and thin for years and I feel like now it was all about to come crumbling down. Dan put on his clothes and just left. Not a word was said, not an apology about how i was treated or anything, he simply just left. As he slammed the door to the front of my apartment, I slid down the back of my bedroom door and just cried for what felt like hours.

What have I done?