Unexpected - A Dan Howell series

Unexpected - Part 14

I stood out in the cold winter air, clutching the jacket around my bump as I waited for the taxi, it was 5 minutes late and I was starting to feel weird, not morning sickness weird, but I felt a little dizzy, but I normally didn't stand up for too long these days. I got exhausted rather easily. The taxi comes from around the corner and parks right in front of me. I grip the steel of the car door, but retract my fingers because it's so cold, I rub my hands on the jacket, open the back door to the taxi, and manage to climb in, although it took some time.

The driver looks at me and waits for me to get in. I mean, seeing an extraordinarily pregnant woman, you would think he would get out and help me climb in, but I guess not in his case. I honestly thought it was a little rude, but it could have been my hormones going all over the place at the moment. I gave him the address to Dan and Phil's apartment, and with that he started making his way there.I sat in the back patiently, nervously rubbing my bump, she was kicking and it wasn't really helping the situation, I started to grow into some real discomfort because she was kicking so strong. I was gonna have a little warrior on my hands. I could literally feel it.

After about 10 minutes, the taxi driver pulls up to the front of the apartment. and it probably took me that long just to climb out of the damn car. no thanks to the driver. asshole. anyway, I stood there in front of the apartment, debating on whether I should really do this or not. I know I needed to, but i was so scared. What if he changed his mind. What if he didn't want a baby. He probably hated me for keeping this such a big secret. My overwhelming feelings got to me and I started to cry, a lot. It was embarrassing, people walked past and saw this fat pregnant lady crying in front of an apartment, I would have thought "What the fuck" as well.

I started walking up the stairs. I had to take a few breaks along the way because, well, I just didn't do stairs, not like I used to anyway. I lived on the ground floor of an apartment block. but with my fatigue hitting me hard, the dizzy feeling inside and a large belly full of baby, I was exhausted. I finally, and oh my god I mean finally reached their door. I took a minute, or 5 to catch my breath. I wiped my tears that were stained to my face and took a deep breath. I needed to do this. I closed my eyes and knocked on the door, just enough so that if someone heard me they would come down the first time, I'm not sure I could do it again.

I heard someone coming down the stairs and I held my breath, I was kind of hoping that Dan wasn't the one that opened it, and surely enough, fate was with me for once in my god damn life. Phil cracked the door open and saw me through the small slit between the door and the wall. He opened it wide and just stared at me in disbelief. His jaw went slack and he went a little pale, but I mean I understood, I was probably the last person he thought he would see.

"(Y-Y/n), what. What are you doing here. It doesn't look like you should be walking around like that"

"I- I uh came to talk to Dan. I saw the video tonight." Tears started coming from my eyes again, I felt so stupid, but with my hormones, I just couldn't help it.

"Well I mean. Dan's not home, he went out. But you shouldn't be out in the cold. not like that. Come inside"

Phil took my hand and helped me up the stairs. I really was puffed out, I was just thankful I didn't have to climb them upwards anymore. I felt sweaty and the dizziness was starting to get worse. He walked me over to the sofa and sat me, looking at me a little concerned.

"Can I get you anything? You look a little pale?"

"Just a glass of water would be lovely, thank you Phil"

He told me to wait right here, although, where the hell was I gonna go in a span of 30 seconds, I couldn't even walk right, let alone have the time to get down 2 sets of stairs to exit the apartment. He comes back into the living room with a glass of water and hands it to me, taking it upon himself to sit next to me. He looked worried, like something was wrong, I wasn't sure if I should be reading his features so I just waited for him to say something.

"So what happened? Last time I saw you , you were in such a rush to get away from me, and then you phone disconnected after the last time we talked, were you trying to hide and keep this from Dan?"

"What no. I wanted him to know. I went to all lengths to try and get him to talk to me, but he wouldn't so I stayed away. When I saw you last, I was running late for my ultrasound appointment, I was a little thrown off by seeing you, because I wasn't expecting to have anyone I knew see me like this, but I wasn't hiding myself. Literally after I got off the phone with you that night, I did the clumsiest thing and dropped my phone into the toilet, so I had to order a new one. I mean even tonight, I was just watching YouTube, trying to find something to past the time, but when I saw Dan's video in my recommendation list, I just knew I had to see him. He had to know from me. And he's not even here. "

I tried to pull myself off the couch, but I just couldn't do it. Phil got up and helped me to my feet. I paced around for a while. starting to feel weak. and the room began to spin a little. I looked at Phil concerned.

"Phil I think somethings wrong" I said, barely finishing my sentence,

The last thing I remember is falling. Whether I hit the floor or not though, I couldn't tell you.