Learning from Mr. Spindle

6

Chad said he was staying hid outside and that he would see Mike later. Then he left. Mike took my face in his hands and kissed me softly before he left too.

Now I'm alone again. I should have known it was just a game to him and he will proudly tell everyone how messed up my life is and how sad a person i am and that I am to be a whore. I just wish he would understand it's not my choice to be raped over and over again.

I ran to my room tears running down my face. Just knowing Mike was going to tell everyone about me Makes my heart want to stop. I can't face all those kids if they know and I'm sure Becky will let everyone know as soon as she hears. What can I do I can't leave and go to college if I don't go to school and get a scholarship. How can I fix this now.

After my shower I put on my jeans and a t-shirt. I got my homework and started out the door when Steve grabs my hair and punches me in the belly. He so mad and I don't know why. What's wrong I ask very low?

You were not nice and happy with those men last night! He yells and I start to cry. I did everything they ask I say but he punches my face. No you messed up they have a lot of money to spend here and your going be nice so I can take it all. Pulling back on my hair, I scream thinking please not today. He hit me in the face again and then he pushed me down on the floor. He pulled down my pants.

Right before he could enter me. There is a knock on the door. The door opens and there stands Chad. He act like it's no big deal to see Steve trying to rape me, so I cry even more. Steve back hands me and Chad tells him he left his wallet in the bedroom.

Steve gets up zips his pants and follows him to the bedroom. When they come out Steve all smiles and say I can't go to school today because his friend Chad just paid for a whole day with me that we liked what he got last night and wanted more. Steve laughed and I looked at his hands. He had a handful of cash.

I began to cry harder and Steve said to shut up now! All I can think is I thought Chad was Mikes friend. Why did he come back to get me after Mike left? Please don't let this happen. Chad just look at Steve and said we will be gone most of the day and then he let out a little laugh. Steve told him to take his time and just remember there always another day.

With that said Steve left the house for work. I sit there on the floor crying. How dumb could I be to think someone was going to help me. I felt someone arms around me a little later and when I looked up Chad was carrying me to his car. I still had my pants around my knees and there was a blanket over me.

Chad just can't wait he didn't even let me put my clothes back on. He put me in the car and came around to the drivers side. he got in then looked over at me and told me I'm not going to do anything Tori. I just had to stop him before he could rape you again. I looked up shock written all over me. Had he really just paid to stop my stepdad from rapping me again.

Tears started rolling down my face and he got on the phone. Next thing I know I'm being pulled out of his car by Mike he holds me so tight and tells Chad thanks. About an hour later I woke up on Mikes couch he was on his phone and you could tell he wasn't happy.

I tried to pull away scared of what he would do to me. When he told the person he would be in at 11:00 and that he was sorry for the class he would miss. I jumped up. I had made him miss work. Steve will kill me! I got to go!

I got to get out of here! Just as I made it to the door his arms went around me.

Please let go Steve will kill me if he finds out you missed work because of me. I'm sorry I shouldn't have came here. I should have been stronger! I was yelling now and Mike just held me tighter. When I calmed down he said it was fine we was going to work but for me to stay here and rest that I need some time to pull myself together.

Mike left about 20 minutes later for school. I jumped up fixed my face and left I couldn't be called out for missing classes. oh wait Steve thinks I'm with Chad. Ok I will just walk home. When I got home I went to my room. I laid down on my bed and try to understand how my life got so bad.

If only I could get away from it all. I walked into my bathroom and open the drawer there was one of the blades. I looked at it and then I heard a knock on the door. I shut the door and went down stairs and there stood Chad. He ask if I was ok and said that Mike was going crazy at school. Chad said Mike called his house and I wouldn't pick up so he sent Chad over there and when I was gone he was in a panic.

I'm sorry I said very low. Chad said No don't be Tori. He just cares so much for you and wants you safe. Why? I asked he looks at me and said that's his story to tell. We talked for a while then he ask if I would be ok and could I promise not to hurt my self. I looked up and he said I saw the blade in your hands last night.

I looked down ashamed at my weakness. I won't do anything I say. That night Steve called and said he wasn't coming home that he was going to some street races and I better get the house clean. I was so happy to be free for just a few hours.