It's now the weekend. The first week of school was okay. I liked last year a lot better though. I've tried to text Jacob, but he won't answer. It's sad. We used to talk all the time, and now we don't talk at all.
I suddenly hear my phone go off and I notice I get a text from Jocelyn.
Jocelyn: hey
Me: hi
Jocelyn: do you want to hang out today
Me: sure
Jocelyn picks me up and we go to the mall. I need to get some things off of my chest. I think I need to tell her my secret.
I've been keeping this secret for over a year. The thing is, that this secret is hard for me to tell anyone. I think it's hard for me because I've looked at a Jacob as a friend until I realized I love him. The problem is that I still do love him, and I can't stop loving him. I've always loved everything about him. Even what I didn't understand.
We get our food at Panera and I guess Jocelyn sees the look on my face.
"What's wrong?"
I look at her right in the eye.
"There's been something that I've been needing to get off of my chest for a long time."
"How long?"
"Over a year."
She looks at me in shock.
"That's for like, fucking ever! What is it?"
I take a deep breath.
"Do you promise not to tell anyone until I tell you to?"
She nods and I proceed.
"Okay. Well, don't judge me or make fun of me, but, I used to like Jacob for around a week."
She smiles.
"That's it?"
I nod. I lied. I can't tell her the real truth.
She would make fun of me.
"That's not that big of a deal, not to sound mean or anything."
"Oh. I thought it was."
We both start laughing. That could've went worse, but could've went better.
