It's now 2 days before we have to go back to school from Christmas break. It's December 31. New Year's Eve.
I don't know why, but sometimes, i don't know who I am anymore. Am I Christian? Am I straight? Am I the person who everyone thinks I am? Who am I?
I keep thinking like crazy about these things, but I don't know what it is. I can't think of the word right now. I also look on Instagram at all of the couples that are on the Internet or around me. It makes me think about myself even more.
Now, I start to think about the guys I like. I'm trying to get over Jacob, but I can't. I don't know why, and it's bothering me. He has a girlfriend. I will never date him so why am I stressing about it so much? We are just friends.
My phone goes off, and it's Jocelyn.
Jocelyn: Hey
Me: hi is it ok if I text you back later? I can't stop thinking about some things right now.
Jocelyn: are you overthinking?
That's the word. Overthinking. I'm overthinking.
Me: yeah
Jocelyn: ok text me back later
Me: ok
Well then. I guess I'm overthinking.
I get my headphones out and go onto the iTunes Radio. A lot of positive songs come on. I'm not in the mood to listen to such positive songs right now.
I decide to Check snap chat and I see that Jacob updated his story. I tap on his story and it's him with his girlfriend. Wow. His girlfriend is super lucky.
My phone goes off again, but this time it's my dad.
Dad: come down. Dinner is ready.
Me: ok hold on
I still keep thinking about it, and I just can't stop overthinking.
