It's Complicated

Fourteen-party time

I tapped the steering wheel virgrusly looking to my right giving my mother an evil glare. She picked the worst time to show up. Noah said she was siting on the steps outside sense 3 this morning. I took a deep breath and finally found the right words to say.

"Ma why did you leave the home"? I asked pinching the bridge of my nose.

"I wanted you to help me get out of that place. To let them know I'm better. And can be back in society". She explained with a hopeful smile.

I shook my head starting up the car and riding down the road. My mother looked at me then behind her frantically shaking her head. "What are you doing? Didn't you hear what I just said".

I didn't want to take my mother back but I had no choice. Too much was happening to fast. Mama just died, Josh may not get out this month, I just started a new job. Thing's have to slow down a bit then I can take on her case.

"I'm taking you back. If I don't ill go to jail. And right now they wouldn't believe me if I did say you were sain".

She smaked her lips turning to me. There was no doubt her mind was back. "And why not"?

Mentally facepalmed my forehead as we stopped at the red light. " instead of waiting to see me you escape. That looked pretty crazy mother".

She sat back mumbling "you don't love me" under her your breath. I rolled my eyes and continue driving to the psych house. I child locked the doors so she couldn't get out. While I dialed the house number they gave me, informing them I had her in my presents in thier parking lot.

Two large man dressed in all white scrubs came out along with the doctor and her counselor. They had a large needle in thier hand as they tapped on my window. I unlocked the car door and watched my mother kick and scream not wanting to go back. I turned my head as they stuck her with the needle. Tears rushed out of my eyes not waiting to hear of my mother cry.

"I thought you loved me you wanted me to get better". She cried out before the drugs kicked in and she quieted down. I did but not like this. I turned off my car once they were inside and follow suit. They buzzed me into the back office,the manager want to speak with me on her whereabouts. I told him that she appeared on my friends doorstep this morning and then recorded into the files.

He asked me a few more questions that I answered and they told me that I was free to go. I saw my mother in the evaluation room as they were looking her over for any injuries. I place my hand on the glass and mouthed 'I love you' and headed back to my car.

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Tears clouded my vision as I took the 30 minute drive back home. I felt my phone vibrate every 5 minutes knowing that Miles, Aairz and Noah were texting me to see how I was doing.

I got back home and continued to cry when I heard my toilet flush. I picked up my bat I had behind the couch and tip toed down the hall, waiting for the bathroom door to open.

I cocked back my arm ready to swing as the door opened. I dropped it to the floor and lunged into Joshes arm's as I clung to him for dear life, barying my face into his chest.

I knew I was a mess. I haven't showers, I had the same clothes on from the day before, my hair was frizzy, and there was still left over make up on face. That wouldn't come off this morning.

He walked to the couch with me stradling him. He removed my hands from my face and kissed my lips, that I knew had nose drippings on them. He kissed me repeatedly until my cries became sniffles.

"Damn baby I was trying to surprise you. If I knew you would of started crying I would have called first. What's going on".

I told him everything. How mamas funeral went, to all of us getting wasted, meeting Aairz girl, and me having to take my mother back to the nut house. I left out the part about Miles and Gi. I don't even know what happened there.