Once A Daydream

22 - Comfort

Katelyn.

He pulled up the car inside the parking lot. While we are riding home, the silence filed the four wheeled moving engine. I was throwing glances at him, but he did not once looked. Kanina pa ako kabado, at ang puso ko grabe ang lakas ng tibok mula pa kay Andy. Napatigil lang for a short moment dahil sa mga kaibigan ko, tapos ito na naman.

Naubusan na ata ako ng laway kakalunok, and I feel na my tears are nearing to go out of my eyes. Sobrang gulo nitong nangyayari, I thought all are good na talaga.

Bumaba siya ng sasakyan, at pupunta sana siya sa side ko para pagbuksan niya ako ng pinto. Pero mabilis akong gumalaw para lumabas. Nung nakita niya ako saglit lang niya akong tinignan, at pumasok na siya sa loob ng bahay.

Susunod na sana ako, pero narinig kong tumunog ang cellphone ko, na hudyat na may tumatawag.

I answered it, "Hello, sis? Are you home now?"

I tried to smile, ilang araw na ata akong sumusubok ngumiti dahil sa mga nangayayari. I really want to believe everything will be okay at the end of the day.

"Yes, thank you for today. Dito na ako kila Lucas."

"Okay, mabuti. Tunog pagod na ang boses mo ah. Pahinga ka na." Dahan dahan ako naglalakad paloob ng bahay.

"Sige, ikaw din. See you soon. Love you." Ang tanging naging sagot ko sakaniya.

"Love you too! See ya!" We ended the call, and para akong gulay ngayon na hindi ko malaman kung matutumba na ba ako sa stress na nararamdaman ko.

I saw a man came out from the garden, "Good evening ma'am! Ako na po bahala magayos ng sasakyan..." Kuya Benjamin greeted me, but I can't really bring now myself to smile kasi iniisip ko asan na ba si Lucas. He is avoiding me.

Tumango ako, "Good evening po..."

"Ayos ka lang ma'am? Nasan ho ba si Sir?" Ang daming tanong ni kuya, pero hindi ko rin alam eh. Nasan na nga ba iyon?

"Wendy! Si ma'am Kate pakialalayan." Nanlaki ang mata ko sa narinig.

"No-" Bago pa ako matapos makapagsalita, mabilis na nakalabas si Ate Wendy.

"Hi! Ma'am, Goodevening! Halika na po..." Lumapit siya agad sa akin, at kinuha ang bag ko na hawak.

"Salamat po." Tukoy ko sa dalawa.

"Kailangan mo ba ng maiinom ma'am, or pagkain? Kausap?" Ate Wendy is really a good comfort as well, but I want to talk to Lucas so I can have answers. I blinked my eyes a lot of times to prevent the tears coming out.

Tinignan niya akong mabuti, at huminga nang malalim. "Sige po, kuha ko po kayo ng maiinom nalang." It seemed that she got my thoughts.

She still held me as I walked upstairs. "Pakidala nalang dito ate..." Ngumiti siya sa akin, at iniabot ang bag ko. She also squeezed my hands. I guess for support.

Tahimik ang buong bahay, at mukhang walang tao sa kwarto. I saw a light coming from his office. I can feel the heaviness of my feet as I step closer to the door. I sighed, before I decided to knock.

No response. My heart hurt at that. I decided to knock louder, then grabbed the door knob to open the door. It is open. I feel somewhat like I am still welcome in his space.

The moment I opened the door, I saw him scanning some papers in his desk, and massaging his forehead. I know he heard me since I saw him paused scanning the papers but he did not looked at me.

"Uh, about earlier...He hugged me because he was saying thank you to me."

Silence.

I cleared my throat even though I am nearly giving in to cry. I don't like this, and I have no words for this feelings. "I am sorry if you took it in the wrong way. I was just shocked you...punched him." It was almost a whisper but he was still scanning the pages he was holding.