2 Points Of View {PHAN}

Chapter 18: Double Negative

((TALK ABOUT SUICIDE WARNING, BUT YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOW THAT CAUSE THE DESCRIPTION SAYS SO. REMEMBER THAT SUICIDE IS NEVER THE ANSWER AND YOU SHOULD SEEK PROFESSIONAL HELP IF YOU ARE FEELING THAT WAY))

"Jump off the bridge with me."

Dan's eyes suddenly widen with shock. I know he didn't expect this talk from me because I'm suppose to be the tough one. The one who doesn't make such unrational moves. Especially when it comes to living or dying.

"You... You want me to jump off this bridge?" He questioned quietly.

He looks down towards our shoes and doesn't move. He stands there in silence waiting on me.

"I want both of us to jump off this bridge... together," I respond wrapping my arms around him.

Dan doesn't push or pull away from me, but instead he moves closer to me. Taking in the whole hug, I bite my lip wondering if he would go through this.

Wondering if he would take his life with me. It wouldn't only be taking his life with me, but us coming to peace. We wouldn't have to think about the future of people invading or trying to harm our relationship. Both of us could go with each other and wouldn't have to worry about each other.

Maybe in our afterlife things could be at peace and we could be safe. If not then at least I felt the love from Dan in this life. I wouldn't trade anything to not have felt this love I have for Dan. He is everything I have and much more.

Nothing can replace him in my heart and he is my everything. Him taking his life with me would make me feel at peace because I would know that we don't have to worry about anybody harming us or our relationship.

"I... I don't know Phil. Is this really something you feel like could help us out?" Dan asked with his face pressed into my chest.

I can tell there is fear by the way he is speaking and I don't blame him. Not knowing what lies on the other side of dying is scary and terrifying, but with faith we can pull through together to make sure our love will stay.

"I feel like if we continue on in the path that we are taking then I feel like there will be major problems because people don't understand our love. They think that us together is wrong. The reasons may be because we are to guys together or it may be the fact that I kidnapped you.

Many people will try everything in their will to stop us and I want to be with you forever. I will be locked up if they found us anywhere because of what I did, but if I never did that then I wouldn't be able to love you," I said as the rain trickled down on us.

The calmness in the air made it better to think clearly about the situation and made the subject easier to take. The rain hitting the ground set a mood of comfort and made both of us feel safe. No cars passing by made it easier to focus on one another.

"Are you sure this will be a good idea?" Dan asked wrapping his arms around me tighter. I feel his chest rising and falling slowly against mine.

"I know it will be a good idea because we will be in each other's arms as the lights go out. The feeling of calm and safe in our embrace will make our afterlife much easier to live on with. We can be with each other forever after this life. Both of us won't have to worry about any danger to us or our relationship.

I love you so much and I don't want to lose you. I want us both to see each other in our last few moments of life happy on how we will be together after this. How we will never have to worry about anything ever again. All we have is our love to make us live," I said reassuring Dan.