Friends to Lovers... Impossible!

Jealousy?

Hello Everyone,

I hoped you all had a great holiday and ate as much sweets as I did.

Well then, let's continue... 

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Kou's POV

Storming upstairs into my bedroom I shut the door, threw my backpack to the ground and jumped on the bed. Grabbing the nearest pillow I stuff my face into it and scream with all my might, the pillow muffling my loud cries.

Kevin had made me so mad that I just wanted to go back downstairs and punch some sense into him. How can he judge Nate so easily like that when he barely knows him? More importantly how can he just assume that there was something going on with Nate and me? He didn't even ask me why Nate and I were together, he just assume the worst. Kevin has been acting really strange lately and it's starting to annoy me. Ever since Nate arrived he has been different towards me and more controlling. I have asked him multiple times what was on his mind but he never told me. We have been best friends for so long that sometimes we can read each other so well, but lately I can't even tell what is going with him. It's like sometimes he has completely blocked me out or he doesn't want me to know what he's thinking and it makes me sad.

Lately I feel like I don't even know the real Kevin anymore. Sometimes when we are together it's like he is the old Kevin I know and love but then he goes and blows up on me, like early, and I don't know what to think anymore. In all our 11 years together I have never seen him act this way, and honestly it concerns me.

What am I supposed to do, should I confront him about it or wait until he tells me what is on his mind. I have to say though, I am still really mad at him. He has never been this controlling before nor has he tried to control me. We might be best friend but we know to give each other enough space. However, I feel like Kevin has become more involved in my life than usual. It angers me even more when he called Nate a playboy. Nate might have a playboy side, but if you look pass that he is just a kind person with a lot to offer, just like Kevin.

Kevin can be a huge playboy too and we both know that he has had his share of girls. His biggest problem is he gets tired of girls easily, if a girl starts to bore him he will drop them like files and look for the next best thing. I know he sounds like a total jerk, but it's because he also has a nice and warm side to him that I am still his best friend for so many years.

Believe me, sometimes I wish he wasn't so attractive or mess around with girls so much because I have gotten my share of ex-girlfriends who have confronted me about Kevin. I hated it, but I learned to accept it because I knew that Kevin wouldn't change, but regardless he is still my best friend. That is why when Kevin keep saying I should stay away from Nate because he is a so called "playboy" I got mad. If he thinks that I shouldn't hang out with playboys at all then clearly he also means himself, because to be honest he might even be a bigger playboy then Nate himself.

All I know is, maybe it is time to put some distance between Kevin and I.

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It's been two days since I last talked to Kevin. I wasn't ready to see him so I avoided him every chance I got. He really piss me off Wednesday night and somehow I just couldn't forgive him right away. I don't think I have been this mad at him since he broke my bike when we were 10.

He's been calling and texting me, and he even came to see me at home. Yet I refuse to see him. He has texted me about every hour since our fight apologizing and yet I wouldn't yield to him. Yes, I was stubborn but I won't talk to him until I was ready too.