Nineteen Ain't So Angelic Either

Does Forever Have To Begin TODAY?

I'm in Atlanta now.

Yay.

I know right.

Spencer and I have been looking for condo's all day and I must say, I'm beat.

"Baby we have all week, we don't have to see every single condo today." I say as Spencer practically drags me into a another condo to look around.

"I know, but this is fun."

For you.

"Spence." I say giving her a look.

She knows what it means.

"Fine. Last one."

I know she's not happy.

But I'm really tired.

And I don't want to spend my entire time in Atlanta searching for a condo.

Not gonna happen.

I need my Spencer and me time.

Or I'll explode.

7:30 pm

We're at dinner.

And all she wants to talk about is the wedding.

I don't mean to sound like a bitch.

I really don't.

But honestly.

I wish she'd just shut up.

Like I get that she's excited.

But she's making this into like some kinda I don't know.

24/7 project that like if we don't complete when the next week it's not gonna happen.

She wants the wedding to be in 4 months.

Which is so fucking soon.

Too soon.

And this is why I'm scared.

I need to just take Kyla's advice and just talk to her.

"Spencer."

"Yeah baby?" She asks looking up from her notebook.

She's using it to write down ideas.

Idea's that I'm supposed to be giving her but she says something, asks me what I think, I don't say anything, so she agrees with it for me.

See what I mean?

We're supposed to be enjoying dinner and she's writing wedding ideas in a notebook.

"Slow down. Okay? Everything doesn't have to happen right this second. I love you and I'm not going anywhere. So don't feel like you have to rush into anything." I assure her.

"I know baby. I just, I'm ready. And I really want this to happen."

"I know and it will. Just let's not rush this okay please."

It's not exactly what I was supposed to say but I think it works just the same.

Cause I do wanna marry Spence.

I do.

I love her.

But I just don't want to rush into it.

People stay engaged for years before they get married.

Why can't we?

"Okay baby. I won't rush anything."

Thank god.

"But." She starts again.

Uh oh.

"I do want a Fall wedding. It's my favorite Season."