my bestfriend's cousin[RUDETEEN SERIES#3]

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(Hoshi's POV)

Her sleeping face on that camping day namin mga magpipinsan. She's beautiful.

Yeah. Love at first sight i guess? I don't know. i tried to act normal as i can.

We became friends. Until i admitted to myself. I already love this girl.

Her smile, laugh, and everything. I love every single of that. Especially ako ang dahilan dahil hindi sila okay ni mingyu.

I actually want to court her but i don't know how. I'm shy. I don't know how to express my feelings.

Kaya nagbigay ako ng kahit konti clue man lang. Baka sakaling makahalata man lang sya. But this girl is dense. Really.

So i made a stupid deal. A deal that i know, masasaktan din ako sa huli because i know mingyu will eventually admit that he loves her too.

So i kiss her, hold her hands, hug her, i even slept with her. Literal na tulog ha. Hindi katulad ng mga iniisip nyo.

Okay sakin nung una dahil magiging masaya sya. Yung mapasaya ko lang sya okay na ako.

But i was wrong. It hurts. I actually saw it. How mingyu hug her and kissed her and hold her hands like 'hey this girl is my world now.'

dude, that's my world you are holding right now. She is my life, my oxygen, my world,my universe, my star, my sun, my everything.

So, hindi ako nagpakita sa kanya ng 1 week. I endured it. Nagalit sakin si lea, sinabi kasi ni mingyu yung totoo.

"Ang sama mo hoshi!" Umiiyak sya sa harap ko at sinampal ako. Well it's not my fault. Kalahati siguro.

"Si mingyu! Sinabi sakin lahat lahat! How could you?! Ginamit mo pa si sena! Who do you think you are?! Cupid?! No!" Umalis na sya sa harap ko.

After nun nag abang ako sa labas ng gate nila. I want to talk to her. I want to tell her my feelings. I hope she listens.

Nakita na ako ng apat. Napako ang tingin ko sa kamay ni mingyu at sa mga ngiti nila. Wow. It actually hurt.

Ginugulo ako ni minghao at ni dokyeom pero tinataboy ko sila.

"Ano ginagawa mo dito hoshi hyung?" Napatingin ako sa kanila.

Di naman talaga ako galit. Jealous? The hell i am jealous! I should be the one doing that to you.

That should be me.

But i am too scared.

I am coward.

I'm afraid to be rejected.

"Don't ignore me" isasara na nya sana yung gate. Don't ignore my feelings.

"Ano sa tingin mo ang ginagawa mo hoshi? You ignore me for 1 week why can't you continue doing that?"

Nasasaktan ako. Alam ko iniwasan kita. Pero kasi di ko alam kung bakit. I need time for myself. I need to know kung hahanap hanapin mo din ako.

Natapos ang usapan namin na masama ang loob sa isa't isa. Mali na mali talaga yung nireact ko sa harap nya. Yung mga sinabi ko.

Kinabukasan bumalik ako sa harap ng bahay nila. Pinapaalis na naman nya ako pero hindi ko na kaya. Kailangan ko na sabihin sa kanya.

Kase pag di ko sinabi ang saloobin ko feeling ko sasabog ako.

"Sena! Ang hirap! Ang hirap magpanggap na di kita gusto! From the very begining,nung camping! Gusto kita! I just made this stupid deal and stupid reasons for you to be affectionate with me! I just want your love! puro ka kasi mingyu! I don't even like lea!" Nanlaki ang mata nya. That's it. nailabas ko din.